I thought i would escape society by 24 or kms. Did neither yet.
Some stuff, i thought correctly, i knew i would be alone but i thought i would be miserable, i am not miserable. I am very happy, nearly 10 months worth of wage in savings(which isn't a lot but who cares), good computer, nice bicycle, stay at a apartment with its own garden and i work a job i hate very much but it is very very simple and WFH.
As my old self, i thought i was going to be a sperg forever, i hide my autism and weird quite well now.
One thing i misjudged myself is i thought i would escape from porn addiction and be some kind of metrosexual or asexual because indifference to sex was very cool in the manga/anime i liked, but now i go into social medias and search bop, brat, tight and other magical words trying to find porn i like and i lose my mind if they show feet with that 'i know and idc' look on their face. I just accepted this thought, there is no escape from porn for me. I just jack off and go on with my day. I think me then would accept me for who i am since i just didn't grow out of the attractions i had back then.
The thing he wouldn't forgive me for is work i do, i gave up soo many of my principles for this work, i now have to use google meet, had to use windows for nearly 8 months on my 'work' laptop, had to setup microshit outlook nearly 100 times, setup microsoft office suite 10+, bought dozens of windows licences, i use vs code as my text editor and use AI once in a while(i