>>233023
>it's safe to assume that they at the very minimum tolerate you
That's exactly how it feels, except not at minimum but at best, and that's a pretty harrowing thing to think about.
>maybe your friends aren't compatible with you anymore. People often age and grow apart, so maybe it's just that.
I don't know, I don't think most of them ever were, in fact I've always had trouble considering most of them friends due to their lack of basic concern, I just stuck around with them because I never really had a choice. There was this other group of people I started hanging out with at some point, with which I thought was sorta more like me because of the circumstances in which we met, but I fell out with them as well.
>Try finding people who mostly align with your interests/character.
I'm at that stage of life where it's impossible, or at least I think it feels like it. Most of the people I know today are people I've known since a very long ass time, which, again, I just stuck with because I never had a better choice. I don't think I've met anyone new in years and the select few I did meet remain acquaintances with which I only entertain extremely superficial relationships at best. If it were so easy for me to just find new people and make friends I wouldn't have ended up spending all my time on the computer browsing imageboards. Even if it was possible, I kinda dread the thought of having to start from scratch with someone. I feel like my relationships are more or less set in stone at this point and it can't get any better, only worse.
>It could also be that you're just very boring.
I wouldn't discount that, especially considering I've had someone explicitly say that to me in at least one occasion, and I know she must've meant it. That must've been one of the few times in my entire life when words hurt me.
>What topics of conversation do you try to converse with them?
Nothing really specific, just whatever. Does there really need to be a set topic? Things should just be brought up organically. As I said, I don't really want to bother anyone and I've grown to think I a bother because conversations don't flow at all and are one sided with me carrying all the momentum until it gets painfully obvious it's just not going anywhere.
>Do you ever offer to hangout and things together?
I used to but everyone was always "too busy" to do anything when I asked so I kinda gave up. They're never too busy to hang out with others though, but nevermind telling me or anything, even though they full well know I'm free and I'm right there. Being intentionally left out is the part that gets me the most. I want to believe they're not doing it out of straight up malice but because they don't really like me being around, and now that I say it I'm not even sure which one is worse.
>Or, do you wait for them to make the first move?
Nobody does that anymore.