Im sure the aliens have calculated this predicament (I did when I watched the movie). I have to surprise myself by blowing my brains out.
The control will never stop. Theyll only go into even more stealth mode. Ive been denied an even playing field in simply the human realm.
You see, with this experiment, it is my life goal to kill as many aliens as possible. I will do it. I have the will to do it. It would bring me Completion, Closure, a Spiritual Need. There is no doubt I will try, and there is no doubt I will kill one or ten of them. It is inevitable.
After dealing with aliens heres how they would play that out: With a lifespan of 250,000 years, theyll "understand," and forgive me. 10 years later, I am gifted with age-reversal and longevity, because I am Special. Aww, isnt that nice, wow the aliens are standup sports, even after I had one tied to a chair and hammered it into hamburger. And then theyll wait another decade. Then theyll capture me and torture me for 10 decades. Because that is how they operate.
They know, more than the NPCs know, that pain is worse than death.
So you see dear reader, I dont have a choice, there is absolutely none in this game, and it would be absolutely stupid to makeup an illusionary choice. They put me in a position that I have to kill aliens, it is my life goal, my highest action, the most pinnacle thing I can ever do. And to prevent my eventual capture and torture, I also have to blow my brains out, quick and to the point, git er done, check out.
They could make me king of the world, with special brain powers, tons of money and snatch, guess what, none of that is adequate compensation for this, and indeed, its inconsequential compensation, because they got out of it something thats a hundred times more valuable than what I got out of it, the methods, the system, the greased gears for the 2023+ human operations, the paralysis, the dream psychic attack frequency duration distance bandwidth imagery sidechannel, how to control the body, control the eyes and attention, control the thought feeling emotion, control what others around the target say and do, control the radio and music, control when in front of commercials or shows, know tomorrows news, how to control these computers, how to be in online culture, how to sway the hearts and minds of the non-targets. Can world respect and a fuckton of gold give me any of that capability? No, none, zero.