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(1.6MB, 1680x2240) Reverse Saw another touhou dream some time ago.
So, I was in my childhood home, which was a flat on the 8th floor of a block house.
In the yard, we had a metallic tennis table, which I remember being used for it's intended purpose maybe the total of 10 times in my life: younger children usually used it for climbing/sitting on, and the older children used it for holding the alcohol.
To the west from the table was a utility building, like a substation or some such.
My room had a bird feeder on it, and as the birds had a sort of hierarchy in there, the neighbouring windowsills in all directions often were occupied by the birds waiting for their turn. And if the window in that neighbouring room was opened vertically, in the ventilation mode or whatever, some birds would perch on top of it, and look into the room until someone moved. Although, in my dream, the windows opened to the outside, and not the inside, as they did irl, but whatever.
So, I was standing in the room adjacent to mine, just looking out of the window, when I saw a girl sitting on the table. I immediately recognized her: black skirt, white blouse, black hair, tokin hat, was that the fucking Aya Shameimaru?
She had a crow (or more like a jackdaw) sitting on her hand, and it looked like she was telling it something. Then the crow took off, and headed towards my window, which was open on the ventilation.
So, the windows also had toning film on them, because we don't have air conditioning in the third world, and because of that I'm pretty sure you couldn't see anything from the outside without the lights on. So, the crow couldn't see me until the very moment it went in for the landing on the top of the window frame; at which point we could see eye to eye through the gap, barely more than 10 cm between us. I could see its eye expression going "oh shit", as it cawed from the fright, and scrammed for the forest.
When I looked back to the table, Aya was gone.
So, I started desperately panning my eyes across the landscape to see where she went, until I noticed a hint of her white blouse between the foliage of the nearby forest. As I strained my eyes to see her, her silhouette became clearer, kind of how if you stare into the patterns on a carpet long enough, your eyes relax, and you start seeing things in the pattern. And conversely, when I blinked or moved my eyes at all, even without taking them off her, I lost my concentration, and she quickly merged with the landscape again. So, I was standing there unblinking, straining my eyes to the limit just to see her. She was peeking from behind a tree, not like leaning, but like just standing behind it with the left side of her body concealed. She was standing completely unmoving, and staring back at me with a serious expression. I'm pretty sure she couldn't see me through the film, but I felt that she could see me without sight or something once she was aware I was there. Eventually, my eyes started twitching from the strain and drying out, and with each twitch her visage melted into the landscape until she was completely gone.
I looked around once more, and once again saw her sitting on the table. Previously she sat parallel to the length of the table, and thus perpendicular to me, but now she was turned to the window, hugging her knees, and looking directly at me from behind them with an uncertain expression. This time I could see her clearly without focusing.
I still couldn't believe my eyes, so I called my mother over to see if she could see her too. The instant I did, she began to disappear again, as if my sight was flowing around her, my eyes refusing to focus on her. I could barely see her by the time mom came over, and of course, she couldn't see anything.
I thanked her, and went to my room, still unsure, whether my spiritual sense finally developed from all the touhou porn I trained it on, or if I simply caught the schizo for the exact same reason. I was thinking of a way to communicate with Aya, tell her that she doesn't have to hide herself from me, and that her crow friends (as well as herself) are welcome on my windowsills and in my bird feeder at any time with any luck she could eventually bring the better crowgirl along.
I figured, I would write her a letter, and then cut out a maple leaf from some red cardboard, and glue it onto the envelope as a seal so that she knows the letter is addressed to her, and possible appreciates me going the extra mile to decorate it. The problem was - I didn't have coloured cardboard, glue, envelope, or scissors. I wasn't even sure if I had a working pen, although I somehow knew that I did have at least a pencil and a stack of A4 sheets. And also, I wasn't sure what and how to write, everything that came to my head was immediately rejected as 'retarded attempts at being funny'. And also, I didn't know how to deliver it to her: I was planning to put it onto the windowsill, expecting her to either fly over and quickly snatch it, or send a crow to retrieve it for her. But if I just put it on a windowsill, it could fall off, or someone could see a letter on the windowsill, and take it before she could get to it; if I put the letter into the bird feeder it would get dirty, and I didn't know if they would dare come there.
As I was pondering all that, I looked out of the window once more, and saw a monkey sitting on the roof of the utility building, watching something on a smartphone (that I for some reason knew it stole from somebody). It completely distracted me from Aya, so I went out to retrieve that phone.