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I think I will call it a win.
It was very difficult on the first weeks, and I constantly failed to complete even the smallest daily goals.
After the first month went by and zero progress had been made I started to think of giving up, but I continued on. I failed hard still, and the more I failed, the more I thought I would fail again next time. Until it happened.
I woke up one day, made my todo list and thought to myself: I am gonna fail this anyway, so I don't really have any need to worry. This fatalistic outlook, although filled with doom, felt very light. It felt as if I had been freed... But I didn't think much of it at the moment and carried on.
I completed the entire list that day.
The next day was one of estrangement. I could not understand why I was able to do it by literally giving up. So I decided to try again while thinking: This is not really gonna work again, so there isn't any need to worry.
I completed the entire list again.