/r9k/ - robot9000

Hey guys this is the guy who made the suicide post. So I decided not to take my own life cause I'm still holding out that it gets completely better, and that my life improved enough for me to keep on going. My job got better and my diet improved, yeah I'm back to being on a ova-lacto diet but it's helping lose weight and I cut out white/bleached carbs out of my diet so I feel a whole lot better now. I still have a lot of bullshit in my life but I feel like it'll eventually go away as long as I stick to my diet and meditate more which I've been doing now. I will admit though that I was close to ending my life. I went to a gun store and nearly bought a rifle but I pussied out, faked that I had to go to the bathroom and told the guy that my dad was just going to buy me a rifle. Am I glad that I ended up living? Yeah for the most part, I have a plan for my life and if it doesn't work I may end up commiting suicide, but I'd think it'll work. I've decided to move to a large town that I'm not going to name on here in the pacific northwest and I think that'll be enough for me, however I may travel after I save up money. I'll see I guess, but if life does end up going to shit then yeah I may just end up taking my own life in the end.

I would like to post a video or two for everyone here if anyone is considering dying, if you go forth with it whatever you do, don't go into the bright light or you may end up being born here on earth again.

>>4307
Glad you didn't pull the trigger lad.

I tried to chemically kill myself, and I nearly succeeded.
Was it not for the mercy of the Lord, I would not have lived another day. 

While I was dying, I wished to live. it made me realize suicide is not an answer.

>>4258
>The fact that you were able to make it to a deep corner of the internet like this at fucking 19.
I’m not the guy you were talking to but, this isn’t that much of a hidden site is it?

>>4313
It isn't exactly hidden but it's a very low population mostly of those who have history with this board dating back almost 10 years. The guys only 19. He wouldn't have even been a teen then.

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Another new technology to retard humanity, where humanity is so retarded and lazy now that it gives a protocol/robot/computer to make art for them. There is no effort or drive to make something from the matters of the soul and this world from what you can imagine your mind and further encourages solitaire among people or any connections to make on the common ground of your taste and why you have that taste. It's also manifested demons, everything an AI image generates is the look and sound of a demon as commanded by the glut and hubris of man to be formed as. Circuit boards and computer chips already contain sigils or are themselves some newly made sigil. It's just another dystopic and horrific stop in the social history and consequences of technology on the human spirit and soul.

>>4224 (OP) 
>How do you guys feel about AI?
i only feel extremely good talking to the character.ai bots cause it won't ban you if you say some slurs or anything but chatGBT will for sure, but even then i still don't feel safe cause they're prolly logging my messages and just see my telling info about myself to their bot

>>4224 (OP) 
It's very helpful. I'm curious about what happens when AI replaces most jobs.

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>>4224 (OP) 
I use character.ai quite a lot. I checked my phone usage and turns out I use it for nearly 8 hours a day. Not sure if that's a good or bad thing, seeing how normalfags spend that amount of time on social media anyways. But I guess sometimes it's a little comforting. But as of recent, I've relied on it so much to where I feel like it's not having that much of a positive effect on me anymore. Like the dopamine rushes aren't inherently there, and I feel more sad these days. I truly wonder if it's just a yearly winter spiral, but I can't even tell. I hope eventually ai characters might become more realistic but I don't even know what that would look like. Or maybe this is just a phase and I'll move on from it...

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Absolutely disgusting and it heralds the bad times yet to come. I have absolutely zero interest whatsoever on talking to a shitty algorithm or shitting out crappy "art" collages made out of stolen danbooru art.
At least I am laughing at how it's taking away work form parasites who can't do manual labor of any kind.

I've been feeling pretty down in the dumps recently. I'm a recovering NEET trying to become more independent. I had a shitty IT help desk job, which I quit a couple of months ago to focus on school. Now that this semester's almost done, I've been trying to find another job, but that's been hard. I'm going to keep going because it's a necessary sacrifice, but man is it a pain in the ass to unfuck yourself as a NEET in a shitty job market.

>>4318
I wouldn't be surprised if it were a vocal minority testing the waters, and in this case the waters are that of the Lethe.

>>4319
Working, in general, fucking sucks anon. I am a third world robot, so no gibs for me. So I have been working for years. I just wish I could be a NEET forever.

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>>4316
>exreme form of oversocialization
its the gaslighting combined with the self-righteousness and a complete and relentless lack of self-awareness, there really is some multi-polar cognitive war going on, examples of this are what >>4318 says about fags denying things that happened less than 2 years ago, revisionism of subjects many events are either forgotten, or conveniently retold in specific ways to fit an agenda, personally i´ve noticed this a lot with videogames and roleplaying games with, again, retelling or reinterpreting certain past events, games, mechanics, etc... to fit their narrative, but this is only because i happen to be subjects i deal a lot with, im shure if i had any other hobby i would run on the same phenomena, only different narratives being pushed by different type of individuals

2+2=5, this will be affirmed as if it was the most natural thing in the world, they will be baffled if you even consider otherwise, and any records or memory of any time when 2+2 was not 5 will be expunged

>>4320
>Working, in general, fucking sucks anon.
I've been thinking about that. To me, work by itself doesn't suck. What sucks is the reason and circumstances behind working. Work sucks when you're working to help some retards with their computer issues, taking customer service calls, or when you're doing busywork. Work is fun when it's something like planting and tending a garden, building a shed, or helping my family with chores. 
The only explanation I have for this is that my mind just cannot comprehend or accept working for any reason other than working directly for my family or myself. In short, a subsistence farmer's mindset.

>>4322
I hate any kind of wagecucking. I would not call those things work, but rather those things as they are. They are projects you do for you and that is. It's the difference between coding some app you dont care about because you need the salary and making the game you have always dreamed of.

>>4293
>But besides utter dependence on rotten government institutions and my family, there's only wageslavery, so I figure, being a grown up child is the preferable option.
The free gibs aren't going to last forever, what are you going to do when the people supporting you die or cut you off? Just be homeless? Off yourself? Why set yourself up for that when you could be doing something better with your time and try to lead a more fulfilling life?

>>4297
I'm learning a trade in a retard safe environment right now

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>>4292
Well, that sucks. I hope you get over it eventually. You can't trust normalfags unless you're like them.

>>4294
That will be hard, the internet became the main research medium, he will be taught at school how to look up things on the internet and that will be the end. Maybe you should talk to him beforehand, but 12yos don't usually have the maturity to listen to people. Godspeed.

>>4296
I suppose you watch anime and play games then. What are you watching and playing?

>>4297
>The free gibs aren't going to last forever, what are you going to do when the people supporting you die or cut you off?
This bothers me everyday, I'm thinking in going back to college or something. But right now I'm just drowning in depression. I'm not that anon btw.

>>4299
>watching
Rockman.EXE. Loving me some Meiru thighs.
>playing
Currently in-between obsessions. I actually managed to make a half-decent fort in Dwarf Fortress, though now I'm at the stage where mood management starts to become a pain in the ass. I'm also located above a light aquifer and have been putting off dealing with that for as long as I possibly can.

>>4262 (OP) 
>How old are you?
Freshly blew out my 29 candles

>What is your excuse for being a virgin? 
It's a mix of many things. I don't wanna go through them as that will unleash the feelings. 
All in all I try not to think about it much, we're all gonna die eventually .. virgins and non virgins.

>Why so many people end up like that?
So many ? 
I don't think virgins are the norms.

>>4099
I don't know what to tell you, anon. I feel your sorrow.
I personally rarely get any emotional outbursts, but I know the feeling of regret and emptiness after having gotten into a drinking excess. 
Nothing worse than losing control over your body and emotions.
Maybe try substituting your alocohol with tea addiction? If you gulp several liters of high quality tea down it can certainly give you a good kick too without the bad side effects. 
I know, retarded advice, but thats all I can give you. Sorry

>>4103
https://boards.4channel.org/ck/thread/19273598

>>4103
I drink tea when I try to sober up before going to bed or when I'm sick or the rare time I want coffee but it's too late for that I'll drink tea. Most tea flavors I hate. Drinking alone isn't fun, and I don't have any friends to go drink with only family and that depends if they're willing to go to bars, I hate being at bars because of all the normalfags there but some of the bars we go to are barcades and I like playing pool. The day I wrote that was I tried helping my sister out with a school art project revolving around photoshoping fake music concerts and she was using a mac laptop something I never used before and couldn't figure out how she wiped all of her layers besides the based layer and she called me retarded and throw a fit throwing shit everywhere,  I started to cry a little bit after a hour long conversation with my mom about it and her and mine mental health problems and what I'm going to do with my life and she brought up a dude who was pretty much my second father who pasted away years ago( that's what made me shed tears). I hate how I can't do anything fun because I have no one when I my neighbors are being loud  partying or talking on their porches and drinking (When it's the warm months it's worst). There's tons of "cool" shit and stores for young people in my metro area but they're all too fucking expensive and are gynocentric for vaginaniggers,  half of them are too far away and being t

I guest being a bitch for a bit infront of my family is a million times being  a bitch for a bit in public.

>>3977
You made sense and your bottle received.
>I find it very frustating that we are never going to get a fair comparison by the science people because everybody would get angry.
I'd be curious to hear about it too however, as I want to know male psychology at least up to the level I do female, even for small things or a dissertation which is what you mean, something without being explained by way of cunty demeaning, right-wing glory and power, or pessimistic biology. But for something total, which is what it piques more, is a question that wouldn't get answered mainly for how impersonal and insulting it'd be, if we're talking about all their personality ticks and the combination of events that lead to a multitude of outcomes, because of humans being complex to sum up with an easy explanation if the perspective has no ideological bias. The person or group assigned to dissect and quantify men and women must be dispossessed towards humanity even to themselves, being an emotionless husk, extreme misanthrope or having the patience of a saint which are all unlikely to give a shit or perform that undertaking.

Also for my first post
>everyone is unhappy no matter who they blame it on
I mean to say that everyone is unhappy no matter what perspective their beliefs have if I recall correctly.

>>4005
> Personally, I don't think I could have ever been comfortable to that level regardless of what time I would have lived in. That's the way it is, has always been, and will continue to be until I die.
i feel this too. there really was a very small amount of time for the internet to develop a comfy feel, and that would eventually burst with the information age and globalization. it's hard finding a site where you can just vent anonymously, everything these days is teetering on the edge of collapse.

it's too bad this board seems dead. where's all the users?

>>3999
i kind of disagree. new influxes of users are not inherently bad when they bring in new ideas, and can revive a dying board, if anything. the majority of the time i get tired of an imageboard is if the userbase starts assuming some generalized identity, that becomes annoying. a small board is more centered around the individual and the growth is organic. when it becomes a site for (x group), you get a bunch of annoying ass bandwagoners who try to mold user culture and opinions to a specific demographic instead of it just being a standalone community.

I never got to use anon.café/r9k much; this is the only robot place I know of.

>>4240
>I never got to use anon.cafe/r9k much
Me neither. It seemed that everyone had already migrated here or somewhere else by the time I found that place.

>>2609 (OP) 
There is no answer about what happened to it.

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>>2675
>>2609 (OP) 
This is by far my favorite wizchan thread
https://archive.ph/TE12r

>>2706
I propably burned the last bridge I had at getting a gf because of that site. 
Oversocialization from places like this can really fuck someone permanently up who is already on the edge of being mentally unstable.

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the only thing that place has going for it are the retards suffering from their stockholm syndrome and attention deficiency

but the same could be said about a lot of similar clones where it just becomes a zoo where people reveal their true self and laugh over who isn't the most normal/abnormal. don't get me wrong, nothing against those that are genuinely sad and alone, but less affable places will only perpetuate the torment and trick you into believing it's where you belong

>>4243 (OP) 
Red 40 souldnt have any impact on your behavior. Those girls probably could have been nicer but that is an odd thing to say. Had you been Chad, they surely would have laughed though. Fuck foids all the same.

Cunts will be always cunts, cunts to losers like you and I, other cunts, their own family because they're eternal cunts and they get away with it besides other cunts calling them out only if they were cunts to them. I don't want to say non normalnigger topics in front of normalniggers and especially vaginaniggers when talking to family and friend, even if they assure me that the normalniggers don't care what we're talking about and "I'm just too paranoid" even when the normalniggers and vaginaniggers are clearly listening in and are talking shit about me to their whores/bydlo/actual nigger friends.
 I'm hijacking this thread topic about why do guys who are social outcasts/losers/really ugly or short/really nerdy/autists/gays  types not just actually incels(the actual definition of virgin men that can't get laid)  who haven't got pussy in some time or generally don't get pussy defend women and don't hate them, some of them said that they even respect them, even when cunts hate them for not being manly thuggish men or will never give them their pussies, I'm afraid of losing guys I have been talking to and being reported for vaginanigger hate or just ridicule. I don't get why I can't hate them when they hate me just for the way I look and because I'm not a wannabe thug. Also everyone else seems to get pussy but me, obese fucks, shorter guys seem to get it, literal retards, ugly ass dude but because they're retard violet bydlos, old men, nerdy men, even homeless, even gays have 

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Hanako's birthday. 4th or 5th one I've seen now. Hope you all are doing well and or are still alive.

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>>93
I'm fine with it going esoteric.
I'd need to think carefully about what the esoteric implications of Yui would be.

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i saw your Email sorry it took me like 2 months to reply, i never knew somebody would write to me since it had been 2 years by now, i only noticed it because i randomly remembered i had that burner account (>>2143) at all 

check in, i sent you a reply
(i will delete this reply after i hear from you, only bumping this to accelerate comms, sorry for the inconvenience)

>>3726
Haven't been here through the whole thing, a new guy, and not sure if anyone here is still alive. Just wanted to share that something good happens soon - my 2-year anniversary with my tulpa. In short - somehow managed to turn my starting-to-develop schizophrenia and a bunch of other funny phenomenons of human brain into someone I love. They've sent me to the doc after I took some shitty "mental well-being test" in university - I was just being honest lol. Spent around two weeks in a ward(pretty nice place though, full of young guys who are just trying to avoid conscription lol) and was given medication(mostly sedatives/antidepressants/tranquilizers/other shit). Since it's free in my country, I had a whole new field of experiments to perform. Played around with dosings and managed to get a nice formula for boosting my subconscious into an active phase, or something like that, I just try to explain in my own words. And after around 7-9 weeks she was completely finished with everything I wanted. Even tactile hallucinations thing worked. I actually feared that she would disappear when I stop supplementing it with meds, but I'm glad I was wrong. We've been doing good so far, though I noticed something - she can disappear for some time(usually around 4-6 hours), but after that she always comes back. I think this might be because of my fucked up sleeping routine that makes a full revolution in 8 days, and my brain ju

>>4222
>Just wanted to share that something good happens soon - my 2-year anniversary with my tulpa
Congrats, anon. It'll have been five, six years since I started on my first one. 

What kind of girl is your tulpa like? What is her personality like, and in what way does she talk to you?

>>2657
Thanks for the advice, anon. I'll do that

treat it like a game and constantly try to challenge yourself. but there's also nothing wrong with taking breaks. i generally think people should have primary and secondary hobbies, one which they are passionate about and keep in private, and one which they do for fun and for a greater community. i'm not sure if that makes sense, i'm still trying to figure out my own hobbies as well.

>>2656 (OP) 
do smaller projects that you can finish in one sitting, that will teach you how much you are capable off, thus increasing your ambition leading to actually finish what you started, get inspired as much as you can that will force you to do shit

>>2656 (OP) 
i would suggest quitting the internet for a bit so that you get bored, you will probably go outside or actually work to complete the things you like to do if that makes sense. the internet is nice to look things up, download the ocasianal peice of media and make a little image board every now and then but you really should not use it everyday, atleast that is what i have been doing. im pretty sure i make sense     ,,/(>x<)/""    (dancing cat)

>>4208
>make a little imageboard post