/r9k/ - robot9000

>>4392
we're in here together

>>4253
>>4258
Lol. This is almost a mirror of my state of mind ~3 years ago. The internet and imageboards truly fried my brain. I started lurking at the age of 17 and discovered 4cuck r9k and "blackpills". it all went downhill from there.
With the scamdemic I got completely overwhelmed by this feeling that I couldn't trust anyone and, while to a degree was objectively true, with my completely warped state of mind it almost developed into a full blown psychosis.
Gladly It's gotten better since then.
I practiced positive thinking and I give every normalnigger the benefit of the doubt and made some aquantances that you could almost call "friends". Something I didn't have since graduating high school 6 years ago.

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>>4740
I've been a quasi-shutin for over a decade, older than you and starting younger than you though not with imageboards as my sole socialization on the internet, only leaving the house for school and the occasional job. I've ignored my feelings of pessimism and loneliness because of optimism and attempt at strength even if faux in a period when I should've explored those feelings, where my life would've maybe improved if I accepted how fragile and simple I am. I hope you do well and don't lose yourself in the process, not in a sense of becoming a normalfag but truly who you are and what you could be.

>>4741
>where my life would've maybe improved if I accepted how fragile and simple I am. 
Accepting ones own ineptitude is the first step to betterment. How long did I wallow in my false sense of superiority without making any progress? I wasted so many oppertunities, so much time! But wallowing in past regrets is no good either.
Honestly, in the end, no matter how depraved my adolescence has been, I think it was worth the ride.
I made a very good internet friend in the process and am already making plans of traveling to moscow by car next year. For the first time in many years I have things to look forward to again.
>I hope you do well and don't lose yourself in the process, not in a sense of becoming a normalfag but truly who you are and what you could be.
Took me long enough to figure that out. All this time I didn't even know who I was. I was just an almagation of post post post ironic internet tropes.

I hope you find your purpose too, anon.
Pessimism is never the answer, blind optimism neither. I think one has to find a healthy balance between the two. Maybe just call it realism.

>>4742
I don't regret anything about my childhood despite how mediocre it was, it was a journey to understanding the truth and believing the voices in my head and feelings in my gut to where I got as a teen. But I've gotten some nigh irreversible health issues because of what I went through as a teen, so if it gets to that point then something is clearly wrong and you're just accepting the facts and lessons of life at that point. Is that even an uncommon feeling?

I still feel like a child, for me no amount of driving and maintaining internet friendships will fix that for me. I don't know what feeling good and finding meaning is. This is the loneliest and most hopeless I've ever been. I want to warn younger people about how little my struggles in coming of age mattered, and how they can cripple you, and what I thought I really wanted.

Sorry if this is too sappy or heavy-handed.

>>4793
>You made my post what you wanted it to be
<nobody loves me, I have no reason to live.
>And I like Mushishi.
Alright Anon you win this time.

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>Decide to join the army to have some chance at leaving NEETdom and having some form of income and freedom
>Train for the tests
>Fail
>Keep trying for 3 years
>Finally succeed
>Make it inside
>Last for 2 weeks
>Drop out during Training
>Back to NEET without a lifeline and no money

>>4795
Being a NEET is a thousand times more honorable (and also freer) than dying for pissrael.

>>4796
i was doing it for myself though, it was more of a safe bet in terms of career choice like any other State/Public job such as becoming a Cop or something like that

>>4797
They stole the comfy high-school teacher life from me. I will never forgive them. Stole it right in front of my eyes while I was working to become one.
It would have been a dream, but now it looks even more miserable than normal office jobs

>>4805
You're right, sometimes i just somehow forget how security deprived we actually are now, but even then, maybe it's something more than just that, maybe it's that it feels like i'm talking to a thing rather than an individual, i'd probably even say i's rather talk to a png or a drawing of a character than an a.i. chatbot of said character, it all comes down to preferance

>>4806
And that's why robots are the future.
>CGI render or poorly drawn ai picture is confusing and uncanny

>>4807
That's how it's looking, somewhat bleak

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>>4805
Exactly. And with a local AI, you have to worry less about spying.

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>>4807
>>4808
Robots are a real technology now. And if you want to design your own, you can get a plastic fabrication machine for under $400. There are plenty of design, electronics, and programming tutorials out there. Not to mention software that has already been made.
I'm not saying it will be easy, but it's not impossible or impractical

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I just want to feel okay.

Don't care. Black eyelids are hot.

>>4548 (OP) 
b&r

>>4550
the problem isn't the women who didn't even choose to be born this way, the problem is the faggots who orbit them and give them attention

>>4549
JFL at this BBC cope

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>>4549
>I get it. Your BVLL died and now you are angry.

>>4550
>dated
>At least online
xDDD
Doesn't conunt

>>4645
My little addendum is that going innawoods to build a bunker cabin with some friends to weather the apocalypse is the right-wing version of I Love Science leftists thinking space travel will improve and benefit mankind, there is no escaping something like a civil war or full-scale invasion. You either win, or get yourself and loved ones castrated before being sent to slave in a gulag.

>>4431 (OP) 
I AM OZYMANDIAS, KING OF KINGS
GAZE UPON MY WORKS, YE MIGHTY, AND DESPAIR
>nothing beside remains

Ask me in 10,000 years if it mattered.

>>4733
hi OZYMANDIAS, I'm Dad

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>>4473
ty Ed.

>>4431 (OP) 
It was over before it even began
>internet just exposed it for what it was
>women are just evil chaos manifested just some better disguised
I don't have hopes for the future simply just existing is all you can do and try to not go insane.

>>4774
This video has to be at least 15 years old, she's just giving be yourself platitudes and is therefore an outdated outlook of the average female and outlet for rage. The type of girl to countersignal men's issues today takes glee in mocking them or thinks her problems are the same as theirs because inceldom and anger at society are now social currency.

>>4785
It wasn't true back then, either. The dialogue surrounding those issues just wasn't mainstream yet. I absolutely hate when women try to preach to men because their lives are fundamentally different. There is no way she can empathize with a man who has faced true social rejection and she's very naive to believe otherwise. The kind of stupid shit women get away with saying and doing only to be showered in praise and given a billion dollars just for existing over would instead be met with calls to alienation and violence (and potentially violence being carried out) against a "low-value" male. I'm not even saying women don't have problems of their own, I'm sure it gets tiring to have latent Bjork Stalker paypigs lovebomb you and Indians spam blurry photos of their microscopic penises to your inbox, but shit like that is pretty much the exact opposite of social rejection.

>>4786
To reiterate girls like her are a minority or eyeroll-inducing in today's climate of sex relations discourse, and there are more enraging lines of dialogue in CY+10 coming from them. I don't know what you're referring to that isn't true in relation to what I posted.

>>4787
She's basically disregarding problems excess men (not talking about shitholes that weaponize reproduction like China and India, similar species organize harems and drive extra males out) face and receives infinite praise from horny sad men because she was careful to use language that isn't immediately recognizable as disagreeable. It's like a siren's song in a way, where less men (not none since plenty are spineless cucks) would be receptive toward her message had she used more aggressive vocabulary. You attract more flies with honey than vinegar. I think she's being deceptive about her apathy for unwanted men, which is worse than being directly hateful on some level.

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Do not be engulfed by the abyss. Do not forget that the masculine principle that reside within (you) is self-sufficient. It does not need the female chaos to be at peace. On the other hand, the feminine principle is pure potential, it does not have a form of its own, thus it must be "determined" by the male's "forming" ability. It will try to move (you). It will try to allure (you) with false promises of fake peace. But you must not yield. Not ever. Not even to the most alluring nymphs. They only do it to deprive (you) of what is most dear. Stand your ground and resists the movement of the tides. For you will remain triamphant while they grovel at your feet. Lesser men and women alike will shudder in fear in your holy presence.

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When I see the way normalfags opine about socialization or how they treat each other, I feel gratitude for being born an antisocial asshole. They're incredibly self-centered and fine with climbing over each other up the totem pole, but the autistic recluses who post mean comments online and barely ever go outside (and therefore aren't even participating in the rat race) are a threat to civilization or something. Every interaction with them is a battle of egos. Even worse: they lack principles. To them, anything is permissible depending on the social status of the subject. I'm not allowed to stick them with a spear or cave their face in with a rock when they try to solicit something out of and grow uppity with me anymore, so I'd rather avoid the headache and keep to myself. They can cannibalize each other to their hearts' content.

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>>4756
You call yourself an asshole, antisocial, autistic, a recluse, yet you appear to have rationality and values. Don't let normalniggers pick your words and fool you into thinking there's something wrong with you when you were born into a failed culture and society. Are you sure your autism isn't just stress? A real recluse wouldn't use imageboards. The term antisocial is associated with criminality and violence. An asshole would be hurting others in order to climb the social ladder. If you tell a normalnigger you're autistic or oppose society, they'll make you out to be a terrorist and report you. They spin it to make it sound like you don't just wish society was better.

>>4757
>Don't let normalniggers pick your words and fool you into thinking there's something wrong with you when you were born into a failed culture and society.
I agree with this part 100% I can't stress it enough to pointificate that  it's clearly society that there is something wrong with, and not us. 

It doesn't really take much more than that to potentially get someone on your side or an understanding if anything. It's important to have these unifying talking points ready instead of saying too much. It can help helps being vague and assertive. Of course you always need to have one talking point ready for "what do you mean" but other than that stand your ground and don't marginalize yourself.

>>1469
He had a 10/1 hitrate as an above mid man let that sink in

>>4783
Even if it were banter most of those women were low value  and none of them had any chill except for the ones that looked like stoners. I'm better looking than that guy 
And I'm a fat fuck I don't even wanna see the women who would say yes to me.

The very thought is depressing.
>2 guys being bros and just saying yes because why the fuck not let's have fun

>>3728
I picked up reading again after being a full blown internet addict for the last several years and barely getting anything done or being able to remember anything since my brain was so burned out from information overload and (You)s.
Right now I'm reading a collection of re-narrations of ancient greek myths. It has been helping me in getting away from this constant self absorbtion with my own feeble mind.

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>>3270
I've been lurking various IBs since my mid teens, starting with 4chan of course. I don't think it has done me any good, quite the contrary it has aggravated and alienated me even further. Especially this kind of hive mind thinking that is very prevalent over on 4chan especially. Someday I just couldn't differentiate between online and real and started looking down on every "normalfag" ever since.
Guess I'm too retarded to fit into most communities or whatever. Maybe I should just stop rambling.
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>>3797
I have been browsing imageboards for nearly ten years now, and looking back, I think it was my natural place to be at the time. Naturally, things have changed since then. I'd say most things have gotten worse in terms of 4chan and websites in general. At least as far as I can recall, most people didn't really believe what they used to say. Of course, there was a generalised hatred towards tumblr people and the like which I still maintain, but things definitely got out of control since then. The internet is not real life and was never meant to be. Ever since it started to be treated as such, it has gotten worse. I don't think that Imageboards are the greatest form of entertainment and can be really harmful to the mind in the long run. They can be almost as addicting as any other social media.
>Someday I just couldn't differentiate between online and real and started looking down on every "normalfag" ever since.
If I am being honest, I rarely thought that people were on same level as me. I have fucked up things with good people a fair share times. Although I know it's not ideal, now I like to give people the benefit of the doubt even if they may not deserve it. 

>>3796
I've been reading some classic books from the early/mid 1900s and 1800s. I prefer to read them in their original lang

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terrariums are a very interesting hobby. kind of goes against the board theme but i recommend watching the youtube channel Dr. Plants if you want to watch some mainstream-ish but still interesting videos on biome recreation.

the idea of dealing with nature on a small scale and thinking of how the properties of a terrarium could apply to the real world is very cool to think about. plus, they look nice. also, could probably apply to aquariums as well but the idea of owning one sounds like a lot to maintain.

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I was never big into comics but I'm going to start reading them again. Nothing else to do.

i'll start.

i feel sick when i think about how many people just subsume your ideas with little conscious thought.

i dont know why, but it makes me feel sick for some reason. the ability to think critically is highly important - not the ability to mindlessly follow trends.

>>4579
because
in the end, its not just about having the right ideas in the first place. if you just assume something to be true, simply because it's popular, you open up more space for inauthenticity and inauthentic people

Onces in a flight from Germany to japan they fed me something they called a cheese sandwich, it was so bad i still feel sick just thinking about it