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>>4740
I've been a quasi-shutin for over a decade, older than you and starting younger than you though not with imageboards as my sole socialization on the internet, only leaving the house for school and the occasional job. I've ignored my feelings of pessimism and loneliness because of optimism and attempt at strength even if faux in a period when I should've explored those feelings, where my life would've maybe improved if I accepted how fragile and simple I am. I hope you do well and don't lose yourself in the process, not in a sense of becoming a normalfag but truly who you are and what you could be.

>>4741
>where my life would've maybe improved if I accepted how fragile and simple I am. 
Accepting ones own ineptitude is the first step to betterment. How long did I wallow in my false sense of superiority without making any progress? I wasted so many oppertunities, so much time! But wallowing in past regrets is no good either.
Honestly, in the end, no matter how depraved my adolescence has been, I think it was worth the ride.
I made a very good internet friend in the process and am already making plans of traveling to moscow by car next year. For the first time in many years I have things to look forward to again.
>I hope you do well and don't lose yourself in the process, not in a sense of becoming a normalfag but truly who you are and what you could be.
Took me long enough to figure that out. All this time I didn't even know who I was. I was just an almagation of post post post ironic internet tropes.

I hope you find your purpose too, anon.
Pessimism is never the answer, blind optimism neither. I think one has to find a healthy balance between the two. Maybe just call it realism.

>>4742
I don't regret anything about my childhood despite how mediocre it was, it was a journey to understanding the truth and believing the voices in my head and feelings in my gut to where I got as a teen. But I've gotten some nigh irreversible health issues because of what I went through as a teen, so if it gets to that point then something is clearly wrong and you're just accepting the facts and lessons of life at that point. Is that even an uncommon feeling?

I still feel like a child, for me no amount of driving and maintaining internet friendships will fix that for me. I don't know what feeling good and finding meaning is. This is the loneliest and most hopeless I've ever been. I want to warn younger people about how little my struggles in coming of age mattered, and how they can cripple you, and what I thought I really wanted.

Sorry if this is too sappy or heavy-handed.

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>>4530

>>1158
>later
>2022+
Aged like milk.

>>5189
>Iryna Zablablabla
Stopped reading there, nadsee larpers leave the hall.

>>5189
The USA was made by running away. Now it has the strongest military and won against Nazi Germany before it was the strongest AND stole Germany's nuclear scientists. History has taught us that moral behavior never works out, of which, the USA got unethical over time due to that, virtues holding them down from being a tyranical overlord. You can say man up and take responsiblity all day but in reality the empowered are limp wristed men that were born rich, and their ancestors made sure they'd be rich due to runing away from their previous nations, and when not the USA they stayed rich by NOT going to war as the rich never do go, and most battles worth fighting are impossible to win when you are a foot soldier in modern times, such as if you are a freedom fighter trying to resist the Americunt police. Only a fool would attempt to do it when they can simply just move away, assuming the USA even allows the moving. Often enough bad nations ban moving away and in the USA 2 million people are considered potential terrorists and also the USA milisharty has admitted to killing it's own citizens without trail on foreign soil, so can you even move is the real issue here rather than an issue of 'runinng away from your problems. Saying you can't run away from your problems is abusive  nigger behavior, stop being a nigger. Why don't niggers go to Africa if they hate whites and getting arrested over law breaking so much? Be

>>5191
Malice.
>>5195
Insanity.

>>5196
Every woman already has her very own bleeding vagina. She doesn't need YOU, or anyone else, to be another weepy hole.

Man up.

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>>5191
lurk more newfag

>>5195
the USA was made by a cabal of Freemasons and now its a 56% (And this number is severely outdated by now probably as it keeps decreasing every year) white country that its importing a gadzillion poojeets to save the GDP and getting into brushfire conflicts in the middle east on behalf of its Jewish Lobby

it is also notable that the US despite having 2nd Amendment rights and a "Frontier" Mentality they let a bunch of snot-nosed kids from the National Guard walk all over them and enforce desegregation, this was in the 50´s and 60´s barely not even 20 years after the end of World War 2, the same "Gung Ho" americans that were jerking off over how many Nuhtzees they were going to kill and how many japs were they going to skin alive immediately kow-towed to authority once their behavior was no longer enforced by that same authority

i don´t know what Ukroanon is going to do or wether he is actually in any danger at all but coaxing people into leaving their own country for the faux hope to make it to the US wich is in a objectively worse state than any European country (and the cause of every European country being in the state that they are) is Malicious at worst and Stupid at best

in general i don´t think anyone should tkae any advice from the internet because it is taking advice from literal nobodies + if the advice 

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Imagine being lonely when you can talk to yourself inside your head all day long! Embrace maladaptive daydreaming, meditate your tulpa (hallucinated splinter of your subconscious) into pseudoreality, lrn2/gnosticism and kabbalism like our trillionaire technocrat oligarchs do, get a boring but well-paying career that doesn't distract you from what's really important because of minimal social bullshit (like plumber or road construction, mindless and physical) so you can hand control of your mind to mushrooms or whatever as you weren't doing anything worthwhile with it anyway so sit in the psychonaut passenger seat and surf the kali yuga neveralone as an army of none.

Would love to talk about my problems. I really would. But now I can't! Because the correct clinical terminology is tHeRaPy sPeAk all of a sudden! Thanks, TikTok and Twitter, as if I didn't have a hard enough time being taken seriously or even acknowledged that I have "real problems" in the first place.

Worst part is not being alone, is being with people for a while then still being alone.

I'm mostly alone but sometimes, each 3-4 months I do some stuff with some random people.
But I still feel like there is no connection, I talk, I remember some names, change some stories and that's it, I never keep contact, no one never send me some message or something. Even the few ancient friends of mine I talk like once or twice a year. I can keep real life conversations for a while but it ends fast after that.
I think I found four or five people that I really clicked. Shared same interests, never got in fights, got some common interests, morals and stuff but in the end we quickly part ways and never be seen again.
Maybe some day I will change this, I hope.

>>5192
>the correct clinical terminology is tHeRaPy sPeAk all of a sudden! Thanks, TikTok and Twitter, as if I didn't have a hard enough time being taken seriously or even acknowledged that I have "real problems" in the first place.
I don't know if I surf the normal fag wave and try to use these new stuff as excuses for my problems, but I really don't want to get near the people that goes identifying them as "neuro divergent" or some mental disease. Being alone is a curse but at the same time a blessing.

>>5167
How is pic related better than listening to podcasts?

>>5194
>podcast
No thank you, I already have enough annoying voices in my head.

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Not a fitting song for him but I chose this overlay (years ago) in tribute to the anon from the shitty life conditions thread.

The best music can be found in a rainy forest. Keep your phone at home.

>>5165
Surely you meant to link >>5126

Are you implying someone needs a redirect rather than copy /watch onwards and then paste it into the end of a normal invidious url to see a vid? I should not have to do it is all. If you're going to hotlink jewtube then oldfags will bitch about it. We always did. It's enabling. My fixing other people's mistakes is enabling because the next generation won't know it's bad to click. Complaining about things is a good thing. It's educational.

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>>5170
>imblyign
Stopped reading there. Talk like an adult, not a KnowYourMeme copy-paster.

>>5174
It's just a typo. An android tablet's firefox has no spellcheck to underline my brain farts when I type too quickly. b's and p's and d's and b's often glitch in the human brain you realize. Everything is a spectrum so this makes me have micro-dyslexia but also other issues can happen. You are IMPLYING/insinuating that someone having typos basically makes them a hyper-newfag? Whether I'm brained damaged or not you're still being retarded here. 
>reread my post to see what it was even about
>it was not even a typo
KYS; people fumble the word insinuation and or insinuating far too often to not want to type out implication/implying. When a legal faggot or cop says 'implicated in a crime' do you chimp out at that too or is it just hard enough to type that it appeases your industrial grade autism?

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>brained damage

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>>5178

>>5110
Not an argument.

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>>5113
I'm sure you came up with that Captain Obvious comeback all on your own.

>>5114
I was going to give you a proper response. But I didn't.

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>>5115

All who are living are slaves, one way or another. Cope, or check out.

This is probably a terrible suggestion, but what if someone like OP leaned into his problem instead of fighting it head on?
What I mean by that and what I'm considering here is the stereotype of some maniac mangaka who embraces his perversions and compulsions such that he spends nearly all his waking hours trying to illustrate his ideal women or fetish and despite wallowing in degeneracy finds a way to create something of value from a compulsion that he has long since given up on resisting and resigned himself to. A sort of Make porn, don't watch it type of argument.
Terrible advice for anyone striving to live a normal life, but as someone who long ago gave up on any notion of normalcy and embraced being a hermit who spends most his waking hours fucking about in the arts to the extent of not sleeping and skipping meals when obsessing over completing a project, that's about all I've got

>>5145
>leaned into his problem instead of fighting it head on?
Actually worse.
The problem with porn is that it numbs parts of a normal social response everyone have.
The more you consume the more intense porn you need to hit,. When you are addicted you start watching way fucked up stuff like it's normal.
Even if you gave up everything it destroys brain activity.

You use drawing as an example but all perv artists were artists before they started drawing porn. And they are not brain rotted porn addicts, just pervs. If someone who knows nothing start doing this you get stuff like Sonichu.
If you are already in the hole there is no constructive way to use it, you just need to get out of it.

>>5144
>I'm not sure how to even find something to do off the computer.
gardening, drugs? get a growtent, grow your own weed. get into shrooms. grow your own shrooms...

tl;dr fuck your glowing rectangle induced pseudo ADHD on steroids, read it or scroll on.

In engineering, as it should be elsewhere, the first step in solving a problem is in phrasing the question correctly. "How do I stop watching pornography?" is asking the wrong question. It is not the problem, it is a symptom, one of many you had no idea were all going together which will only seem obvious after going through the hard introspective work to connect all those distant dots. And declaring it "sin" or otherwise "bad" and therefore "I shouldn't do it" is a classic guilt trap to keep you locked in a vicious circle of anxiety and despair from "failing" again and again -- and you will until you figure out the mindtrap of your own making and how to extricate yourself from it.

What you are doing by asking "How do I stop watching pornography?" and trying to answer that with pseudoscience quackery like No Nut November, semen retention, and other "muh masculine energy chakra vibes" quasi-religious woo, is all the equivalent of having a persistent cough from undiagnosed throat cancer, but all you've ever done is kept consuming more and more Mucinex, Robitussin, and menthol drops which themselves cause all sorts of their own problems via side-effects and overdosing.

How's that working out for you?

So make the choice to dig deeper, the roots are underground; you are watching porn for more than one reason and they're each far more multifaceted than "I got addicted" which is in m

However, sometimes the fire need be put out before you can go hunting for the faulty wiring that keeps sparking and setting shit ablaze. And like any other harmful habit ("addiction" is too loaded with unhelpful connotations and implications), the first step is education:

https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/miscellaneous-resources/start-here-evolution-has-not-prepared-your-brain-for-todays-porn/

https://www.mentalhealth.com/library/the-brains-of-porn-addicts

https://drtrishleigh.com/how-porn-impacts-the-brain/

Best of luck keeping the fires to a minimum so you have a chance to dig around for the source of your suffering. No need to try and stop it entirely right away, It'll go away on its own especially if you build back better habits.

>>4250
interesting

Just rape them

In the most "tough love" way I can in text: STOP EXPLAINING YOURSELF, you should respect yourself better than to be respectful to the disrespectful who demand an explanation for why you are the way you are. Who do they think they are, what makes them so superior that you should bow down and explain yourself to them? You are under no obligation to tell anyone any thing about what you're doing, saying, thinking, or feeling. You owe no one a single justification for your existence, you need not give anyone a warning nor advance notice of what you're planning. Again: have a little self-respect and quit begging for approval.

Replying to a 3 year old post as if anyone will read this.

70% of Autists have hypermobility spectrum disorder, which comes with some quality IBS/gut permeability issues. What they harmlessly shit out could be fucking you up royal, going direct from your digestive tract into your blood stream. Add in a 70% chance of someone with HSD having issues with mast cells flooding your bloodstream with nasty shit if you so much as look at the wrong food and yes you can be seriously fucked up from random shit that is nothing to other people and it can change on the fucking day.

Reminds me of some douche at work trying to gaslight when I said I could smell mold. Someone thankfully backed me up, but fucking normalfaggots carry on about empathy but they can't even imagine that someone could have superior hearing and smell to them and their knee jerk explanation to anyone noticing anything that they do not is to call them insane.

Also there's no need to self censor here, normalfaggots or cunts is fine.

>>4250
>I'm hijacking this thread topic about why do guys who are social outcasts/losers/really ugly or short/really nerdy/autists/gays  types not just actually incels(the actual definition of virgin men that can't get laid)  who haven't got pussy in some time or generally don't get pussy defend women and don't hate them, some of them said that they even respect them, even when cunts hate them

>>5125
>source: just trust an anonymous shitpost, bro