A new one is needed.
>Play Tabletop 40k (3rd edition) on Maptool with some dude
>Lose a Land Raider first turn to lucky 6's
>Fail 3 consecutive 2+ rolls aganist a single sentinel
>Fail more +3 saves that i can count
>Play 2 more games that end up in similar results
>do the math after the game
>Tabletop 40k requiring you to pass multiple checks without failing a single one just to remove an enemy figure generates a probability curve that essentially fucks you over and makes overall success rates very low
>do some recon on the internets (mainly old fart forums) to check if the game is this bad or im just fucking up the rules somewhere
>Turns out everyone defends rolling buckets of dice with nil chances and apparently i should just "git gud" instead of pointing out design flaws
>Picrelated treating a dice-rolled russian roulette of a miniatures wargame set in the most creatively bankrupt and unoriginal setting to date as if it is a litmus test for sufi initiation
>Be playing XCOM-Enemy Unknown
>Put it on classic because i've played enough UFO:Defence
>Ayys can shoot through full cover no questions asked
>Fail more 90% shots that i can count
>Fail more damage checks leaving Ayys at 1 HP than i can count
>Ayys can peak out and one shot you in a single turn
>Meme enemy that chokes your units, goes into stealth and the few times you can shoot at it it gives you a flat -20% to hit him because it's a flyer
>The game is just not fun at this point and i'd rather be getting reaction-fire fucked every time i drop from the skyranger at old UFO because at least in that game you can counter-fuck them with smokes and HE shenanigans
>Again, do some recon to see if im being retarded or this game is really this much of a trainwreck
>"nuh-uh you BAAAD nothing wrong with Ayys straight up ignoring a -80% full cover + hunker down penalty"
>Alternatively "Just lower difficulty bro" as if a intrinsic issue with the way the game is designed is gonna be solved by putting a band aid of lowering the difficulty so that the game gives you the unfair bonuses instead of the AI
>Months ago, maybe a year i can't really remember
>be on one of the videogame boards
>"RTS games suck because they are hyperspecific excersises in gookclicking, wich is good if you like gookclicking but if you want to just play a strategy game you're fucked because the industry is landlocked in making iterations of starcraft with a different coat of paint"
>the first reply to that is "you are bad at RTS games lol" and being accused of reddit-spacing
the above expositions are just the tip of the iceberg but character limit won't let me
>Have poorly designed game
>Point it out
>Litmus patrol is deployed "Git Gud" is uttered
>Poorly designed game gets off scot free
>Videogame company keeps pumping out poorly designed games
>Tfw these people will be the same people that curse and lament themselves when shit games are made and the videogame industry gets more and more scummy by the day
>if you dislike something ever its because you are bad at it and any points you may have are invalid
>somehow im the one diagnosed with a personality disorder, but the stockholm syndrome gamblers above are regarded as perfectly sane human beings
>Nothing i ever say today, yersterday or tomorrow will ever be valid because someone will find a quirk in my behaviour and call me a schizo
on a completely unrelated note, i almost finished the Final version of Dispossesed/YRS/ACID System/Every single previous attempt at making my own RPG system, turned out very different from what it was supposed to be but for once, its something i actually want to play without going "i should just fork Storyteller/play FUDGE instead", got nothing to show for it beyond a text file though, gotta get it all in a neat PDF and all that
>a new one
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I've noticed that people often bemoan a lack of special experiences when they are generally attainable (sometimes even if poor). In one summer, I went to a stand-up comedy event and hiked up a difficult mountain.
When I was eight years old, I recall going out west. The morning after the flight, I saw mountains in the distance. At the time, they were scenery to me. Hiking them is a magical experience because what was once something I never even imagined myself doing becomes a tangible experience.
Ah for fuck's sake something fucked the formatting and pictures, fixed it tho, sorry for the fuck up
Every year, I find it more and more difficult to make friends online (IRL is a lost cause). I have myself to blame in large part though, considering I keep removing people because I get bored/tired/uncomfortable around them. I recently removed someone I was somewhat close with because he was starting to annoy me and because he’d try to get me to go back to a shitty MMO I’m trying to quit for good. Alcohol was involved in that decision, and I know it was a shitty way to go about it, but whatever. I’m a shitty person anyway, it’s not a bad thing to not be involved with me.
why do you want friends for though?
could always be worse, you could be stuck living in a shithole hillbilly town where everyone has 6+ dogs that keep barking at 3AM, or nigger neighbors that blast music at full volume to the point where your walls literally shake, even worse yet you could be one of those niggers (and then think you are one of the good guys), take a deep breath and be thankful you're not one of those niggers
take it one step at a time, most people are niggers anyways and you'd be surprised at the ammount of fags that WILL betray you, specially online friendships, in my experience most fags online will get along with you in exchange for one thing, for example friends that you play with, and you only ever play shit with them, they don't care about your life beyond that, ideological friends that only orbit around you to discuss XYZ, then as soon as you no longer feed into that, ciao, in reality it is no different from IRL friends actually, everyone's just a nigger
the golden rule i've witnessed myself is that having common life-or-death/extreme experience is what makes people stick with you, or rather that it is the litmus test to know if you can really relate to someone
an example i can give of this is my only IRL friend that i have, or rather the only IRL friend that i haven't willingly pushed away/cut ties with, he had a falling out with his Ex-gf, got himself fucked up over 3dpd and started hanging out with retards he didn't even like, i called him out on him turning his entire fucking life into a trainwreck, he pushed me away because he didn't like what i had to say, some time later (years) he realizes everything i said was true and that i was prettymuch the only fag in his environment that was being truthful, he decided to un-fuck himself, we re-established contact and we've been close ever since, he's had a few chances to fuck me over, he never did, i had more than a few chances to fuck him over, i never did, why? because we went through shit together, i was honest to him, and he was honest to me, shit happened
it is only normal that you end up being bored or uncomftable with peope if the only interests they ever had were surface-level shit, like trying to get you back on a MMO
regardless of all of the above, remember that everyone dies alone, you don't get to bring friends
you should also start running, it fires up your fucking synapses and gets your heart pumping, its the shit yo
I get it, I have had bad experiences too and I definitely learned not to open up too much to others. I'm old enough to have learned the hard way that there's no point in being too transparent to others, it can only be a bad thing. It's just that sometimes, the lizard brain compels me to get close to people sometimes, even though I know rationally that internet "friends" are whatever and not shit that's meant to last or be taken seriously.
I wish I could write something interesting about myself or my life, but I feel like I have nothing to contribute and words have never been my strength. I only ever end up incomprehensively rambling.
It is always a mystery to me how you manage to consistently find interesting things to talk about and in the form of elaborate text walls.
I wish I could become more literate, more aware of myself and my sorroundings. The last few months have already improved my ability to reflect on my own actions, but I can't properly articulate it. I still feel like a shallow cattle human. Perhaps I am what you would call a failed normalnigger. Ignorance is bliss.
In spite of my infatuation with imageboards and internet culture, I've had to realize that my lack of creativity or anything worthwile to the internet means that I am only a net weight on any sort of community that I get involved with.
Due to this and my overall inexperience and ineptitude, I am now convinced that I am part of the cancer that is killing the internet.
>consistently find interesting things to talk about and in the form of elaborate text walls.
Making OC, memes and just getting myself busy with extended projects is the only thing keeping me sane and keeping the anxiety of my noise-enriched environment, just focus on performing a task and shutting down my thinking faculties, for me writting walls of text is the fine line between staying sane or having a mental breakdown and crumbling under the visicissudes of physical "reality"
For worthless subhuman cattle like me there's easier escapism like watching cartoons or listening to music
Used to read mangas but scanlation teams never translate the shit i read, and i did not have the funds/knowledge of moon runes to scanlate myself so i dropped that
>Listening to music
i blast DnB and Breakcore on a daily basis because its better than listening to the constant noise of the satanic hellspawns around me
boardgames/wargaming is where's at tho, its surprising how much you can learn about game design (and how poorly designed most popular videogames are) by playing the damn things
Don't despair. Sometimes a clever or dumb but funny remark can uplift a thread's value. Even questions can be useful and bring out interesting information from anons to whom that question wouldn't occur otherwise.
Still working on my game. The algorithms I'm using for entity movement is always completed, but when has it not? At the very least it's at the very final stage. Nothing but some peculiar bugs stands in the way of moving on to something else.
I don't know how english.
>the lowest ends of humanity will form temporary "robot" groups but will always die out
For the most part, I doubt that there were robot groups like this until the advent of the internet. Pre-1980s, I bet many robots never encountered another outcast in their entire lives. In real life, I have never encountered anyone like the people here, and the process of finding uncommon books that I wanted and authors who I could relate to would have been a struggle. We would've been almost totally isolated in the old days.
>better than listening to the constant noise of the satanic hellspawns around me.
I know what you mean. Everything is better than that endless nigbonics mumble rap and 'cuteboi' faggots howling about worshipping whores.
For me it's metal stuff, especially old school 90s death- and doom metal stuff. It makes me feel above the cattle obsessed with its own emotions. Recently I really got to understand this music. It feels like an utter disregard of everything around me.
>scanlation teams never translate the shit i read
Must be pretty obscure stuff that you read then. I rarely have this issue, though I watch more anime than I read manga these days.
Weirdly my taste in film is quite the opposite of the escapism I'm looking for in music. It is mostly shoujo stuff, 'healing media', where nothing is really happening. I don't know what's so alluring about that to me. Maybe the stark contrast to the whorehell around me? I swear I don't want to be a little grill.
I have come to disregard good graphics and come to like the SNES era stuff mostly. It kinda takes me back to a time I suppose was much better, less complicated, despite the constant technological innovation which must have felt so novel back then. AND THERE WEREN'T NIGGERS EVERYWHERE IN MY COUNTRY
Yes, the 90s were right before EVERYTHING went to shit. Guess I'm just having an extreme case of retromania. I really can't look forward anymore.
But yeah. Haven't played recent videogames in a long time. My Ryzen 3600 rig that I spent around 500€ back in 2019 is catching dust at home. Kinda feels like a waste. Maybe I should use it to generate AI 'art' lol. I guess crypto mining isn't worth it anymore and the GPU is quite old anyways.
Like tabletop RPGs? Don't you need several persons for that? You go to tabletop meetings and stuff?
I never did much tabletop games as a child since obviously I never was a very social person and I guess I'm too old to get into that now, but it sure is interesting.
I could also never get into strategy games. It always looked so complicated, so I didn't bother. But I suppose it can be a rewarding experience to really master such a game.
Also I think my countrys internet just went partially 404. At least I can't access most of the major sites including google. Oddly of all the websites I tested, besides YouTube, this is the only site working. Don't know what's happening. Maybe russia nuked some network line or smth.
>I have come to disregard good graphics and come to like the SNES era stuff mostly. It kinda takes me back to a time I suppose was much better, less complicated
I'm not doing things for enjoyment anymore, just for the aesthetic.
I litter my room with ancient E-Waste that I find at the local dumpster and play those outdated games for the LARP of living in the 1993.
To me it seems many here have a problem with modern society and seem to think they could fit into traditional societies?
I've had a stronger craving for alcohol lately. I don't want to become an alcoholic, but it's the only way I can feel anything these days.
I feel like the pre (high speed) internet world was a completely different reality that we can't even imagine anymore at this point. Especially with the widespread use of smartphones it all went downhill so quickly.
Everyone I've been talking to in real life seems so desillusioned with everything. Propably since all are subjected to the same constant stream of mkultra tier neuron over stimulation with irrelevant data garbage.
I too feel a strong sense of this desillusion. Though I used to be interested in different ways of living in other countries, I've come to realize that there's nothing left of that which makes those countries or cultures or anything unique, at least since 10$ chinkphone with access to high speed internet connections have become available in the most remote shitholes. Now with the introduction of satellite internet, there will be no place unsullied from this desease.
It seems to me the internet really managed in the span of ~20 years to dissolve any kind of fabric left in society and lead to the unhinged hedonistic hell we have today. Much more than all social changes and tech before.
Just imagine around 2 decades ago the majority of men had to physically go walk into a video rental store or something to get their dose of eroticism. They couldn't take their smartphone out of their pockets at all times and look up the most degenerate nieche fetish porn imaginable and live in those fantasies.
Or think about how it has turned relationships into a commodity - back then there was no platform for whores to scroll through hundreds of different guys to fuck in a matter of minutes and to have a personal army of thirsty shells of men worshipping her and sending her money for her whoring. https://youtu.be/RjNx7J3UN5E
Then of course there is the fact that critical thinking is non existent anymore. You can't even tell what's relevant anymore, cause there is no line between novelty entertainment and learning. Just reading 'amusing ourselves to death' recently made me realize the severity of the situation. It is that but 1000 times over.
Is this even possible to revert? Could someone ban all mobile devices and limit the public internet bandwithd to modem levels? Except best korea I can't think of any country that has implemented something like this.
It is ironic that nieche internet communities like this are the only places for me to see interesting people who don't seem like empty husks.
Are you as outcasts even concerned with anything concerning wider 'normalnigger society'?
Anyways I should read a fukn book instead of bogging everyone with senseless ramblings about self evident things.
I don't think that fitting completely into society is possible. However, I think that we are already past the sweet spot where things would have been easier.
I have always felt conflicted about this topic. I think that going too far back is definitely worse, but the future doesn't look too bright either.
Everything goes to shit when you stop caring.
Finally got a job after just under half a decade of NEETdom and about a year of trying really hard to get a job. It is way less satisfying than I thought it would be to finally have an income, but at least now I can afford things.
Also, aside from a few bouts when I feel completely miserable for a week here and there, I "cured" my depression by lifting while listening to tough-guy hardcore (Hatebreed and Terror mostly).
Feels good to finally be semi-functional and physically fit for the first time since I was 14, even the brain fog I had gotten used to in the past few years and became a reason to justify passively rotting away, as even my brain seemed to be in decay, is gone.
I felt the same way after getting my job. The money doesn't seem to mean anything for me right now, and I realized that it would be insanely easy to blow it all, despite saving almost every cent I earn. However after powering through the initial misery and figuring things out a bit, I managed to turn it into a mostly tolerable situation where I don't have to work too much. And yes, it seems to restore/help maintain my mental acuity, probably since I'm forced to actually use my brain most days rather than being able to rot. That all being said, I would still like to go back to being a NEET soon. I burned out at this job a while ago and I'm really just trying to hold on for however much longer I can.
For a long time I've been sick and tired of fapping but kept on doing it. Feeling I might be done now. I'm extremely close to escaping the Internet.
I HATE fast imageboards
I've been there.
Your brain is melted from excessive imageboard usage and entertainment. Get off the internet for a good while.
You seem seem pretty self absorbed. Stop that. It won't get you anywhere. Get away from yourself. In case you're a NEET, look into getting a routine first, maybe a crafts hobby and shieeeet, wash your penis yadayadayda. All that improvebruh shit you've propably been told dozens of times before. Write down what you do each day is the most important thing. Just a simple textfile with the dates and a checkbox of what you've accomplished.
Introperspection can only help if you've got the broader scope of things. Idk
It's been weeks of barely being able to remember my dreams.
I've been struggling to fall asleep every night, and just waking up more tired every day. I think I should do one of those sleep study things.
I was going full NPC mode. I felt as if I wasn't thinking, de-realization, tunnelvision, no ideas, no creativity, no lucidity, unconscious, and the days went by so quick without being able to do anything.
Yesterday I stayed up for 22 hours, and then slept for 12 hours. I feel like I can remember maybe 3 or 4 hours of solid pretty good dreams where I felt great.
Now I feel lucid and awake again. I wish there was a way to stay like this.
I don't want to go back to NPC mode again.
I feel like I'm progressively drifting towards being an NPC as I'm getting older in general, and by that I don't mean I believe in the mainstream pozz ideology, but just not thinking or having ideas anymore like I used to.
Can any of you relate to this? Is there a solution, besides drugs?
Getting together with family for the holidays for the first time in years is like a video game filled with buggy, badly scripted events. No greetings or hugs. No Grace. Everyone goes to open presents before I finish dessert. Everyone leaves while I'm in the bathroom.
You are idealizing isolation and NEETdom and yet you seem lonely and miserable
Call me a normalnigger all you want. I'm just trying to generate traffic since this place is so dead
i am plagued with brain fog and tiredness which produce the same outcome you listed.
i wish i could get out of this state.
I don't get lonely but I am miserable. I'm pretty incompetent.
Take some magnesium glycinate.
I think robots want an escape precisely because they're miserable, and that NEETdom and the like is idealized because it offers that escape from the condition that they're miserable within. Is it that different from a sin riddled man who seeks comfort in church and God, who despite continuing to do evil in a way that he hates still wishes to strive to be like what his ideals commands of him? Or any other form of temperance that could be mentioned, eg lifting, dieting, NoFap, abstinence, etc, where the perceived ends or motives requires one to suffer through the same desire he wants to rid himself of? Although in this case of NEETdom it might be closer to a slave no longer wanting to suffer from a whip rather than a desire for some higher ideal.
Working or wanting to be in a state where these sorts of undesirable things no longer affect you is to be expected.
I was fucking around playing solitaire card games, holy shit what a fucking excersise in futility, most of the games are literally unwinnable and/or rely mostly on luck, why anybody regards them as "relaxing" is beyond me, then again we are talking about the same cuckolds that say shit like how evolution exists, race is not real, and communism works
>holy shit what a fucking excersise in futility, most of the games are literally unwinnable and/or rely mostly on luck
Just like real life! Getting an unwinnable game is less frustrating than losing against others because of luck. Find something with better odds or make your own.
>then again we are talking about the same cuckolds that say shit like how evolution exists, race is not real, and communism works
In my experience Poker is the choice for the "I'm an adult now" costume personality most every faggot adopts in their twenties. All political monkies, doesn't matter, left, right, center, are too busy roleplaying as cool intellectuals on social media pwning each other. Maybe they will ironically play one game of Microsoft Solitaire to share a screenshot online showing how they're "quirky" "loners". You could do with less time online when your first thought about something as innocuous as solitaire card games is lashing out at your political opposite.
>make your own.
yeah that´s the plan, i just got a few decks of cards and wanted to check what they had to offer beyond divination, and fuck me this is just yet another dissapointment, its a fuckload of missed oportunity, cards have a 1-10 range with 2 wildcard jokers, 3 courts and 4 suits, there´s so much possibility in terms of odds chances and mechanics you can come up with, instead it is used to play some rigged-puzzle shit and rigged-odd games aganist eachother for money
but then again all this coupled with >>3885 means there´s a uncharted territory on the fringes of entertainment, something beyond rolling percentages that don´t even exist (probabilities rely on a infinite ammount of samples, when somebody says 75% it means that if you keep trying that thing infinitely it will work out 75%, you can still have a bad day and fail at that 4 times in a row and in fact, faill all those attempts in a single day because those 4 were all the attempts you took that day, chances literally do not exist and most games rely on a feat of schizophrenia of making you believe that dice are somehow "realistic" because "fog of war" even though the things we call "random" aren´t so, when someone trips on a puddle in the ice, the puddle was already there and he failed to see it, tripping on it, he didn´t trip on it because 75% he will trip on it and he failed his trip check), beyond the tryhard circlejerk grind of competitivity, grindfests, making skewered rules so game companies can sell more overpriced miniatures, and rolling bucketloads of dice because of the dopamine hit
i already did some minor experimentation with diceless roleplaying, wich turned out to be quite succesful, now that i have a few decks of cards in my hands, im gonna see how to put them to use and experiment with both diceless and card-based gaming, i can´t possibly do worse than the already stablished gaslight games so there´s nothing to lose really
>You could do with less time online
out of the question, i need music 24/7, my environment is too loud, where else do i download songs and expand my song library?
i could give more details but im feeling lazy
My mind feels blank
Just talk about that music or your data hoarding habits. There's nothing I could care less about than Solitaire or its userbase
Cool. I got into cards during Scouts, but after too much bad luck I stopped playing. At least with solitaire card games no one is gaining from your loss, monetarily or mentally. An unwinnable game is truly a "nothing I could do" scenario so it's no big deal. I don't have the imagination for roleplay, but will try what you make. In the meantime I'll find my cards and explore the many different variants available.
You may not, but I'm becoming more interested in distractions that don't rely on people or electronics. There's no goldilocks imageboard with just the right balance of activity and quality to keep me chained to a computer anymore.
Everytime I have to enter this godforsaken city I'm overflowing with disgust and hatred.
In the last few years, this country has been filled to the brim with disgusting shit skin niggers, hearing them defile my mother tongue like that fills me with pure disgust.
They are in every small town now. Using public transportation there is no way to avoid the sight of these things.
Then there's government campaigns to prevent the nigger cattle getting STDs from fucking around like savage animals. They are putting these posters on every subway stop with catchy lines like "blowing instead of bubbles"some of these posters are straight up pornographic.
Learning just how far everything has decayed, how completely unhinged, shameless everything has become these past couple of years I had barely any real contact with the outside world, makes me more content not being a part of this degenerate niggercattle society
>but I'm becoming more interested in distractions that don't rely on people or electronics.
I think you have a point there. But perhaps it is not electronics perse but internet and modern computers that you want to rid yourself from. Perhaps old RPG games could give you a similar experience, relying more on your imagination and not on fancy graphics to craft those fantasy worlds to escape to.
Everyone I talk to irl seems utterly desillusioned with everything. They only exist in their online pozz reality and don't want anything else
have you guys ever listened to opera? I have never listened but recently I learned of nessun dorma. It made me cry and i feel embarrassed because it it. it wasn't a self pity cry like in the sad loser uni days, but one where i still felt conscious and rebuked myself for being a big baby. I couldn't stop until I turned away and listened to something else.
this isn't normal right.
Jewish religion: imposes degeneracy
wh*te religion: enables degeneracy
Muslim religion: Destroys degeneracy
I wish my ancestors, the romans, had genocided you snownigger mudhutters.
Jews may have created and financed all those leftists, but who supported and enforced?
Who voted for leftist politics? Who wanted femboy hooters? who plays VR chant? who rapes dogs and makes movements to legalize it? It's always fucking whites.
Face it, you are like the norsca of this world. Whites are a vessel for the chaos gods - or just the jews, I guess.
Jews alone, even jews+niggers+chinks, would have never ruined this world so. I hate whites, I truly do. An Evil Overlord is nothing without his minions, jews are nothing without whitoid subhamsn - the orcs of this planet.
pic related, it's me, seething
You really think arabs are not degenerate? I'd concene some like the Taliban might not be, but I dont know them that well. besides that, yes, jews are nothing without normalniggers simping for them
>muh uni muh waaaaahhh
Shut the fuck up, normalfag retard.
Arabs are child fuckers, just like every other semite.
fuck around and find out
>An unwinnable game is truly a "nothing I could do" scenario so it's no big deal.
no, that´s worse, that means i can´t stab anyone and externalize my anger and disgust other than maybe burning the cards themselves
Jewish: kneel before a god, pray then drink infant blood for said god
Christianity: kneel before a god, then pray and follow a bunch of moral precepts declare holy war on shit untill you get cucked by humanism, then realize you were the humanism all along and commit sudoku
Muslim: same as above, minus the humanism and then plagiarize gnosticism with sufi stuff
>Belive in god
>Belive in the demiurg god
all religions are the same, the precepts change but it all comes down to the above, pick an external entity of superior power and call for its
attention by following certain arbitrary precepts
BONUS TRACK: SCIENCE!
>Make up a bunch of abstract theories that have no bearing in reality (IE:probability and statistics)
>Said abstract theories rely on the faith that somehow the initial assumptions upon wich the calculations that led to such theories are correct otherwise your entire worldview collapses
>Your worldview implodes anyways when math prooves that God exists and every major science-man was a metaphysician (Bohr, Newtown, Schrodinger, Tesla etc...)
>It implodes even harder when...
>Piltover man was a deliberate hoax of monkey-bones placed on an actual cadaver that was there before
>Nehanderthal is literally some corpse with arthritis that later some ((( A r c h e o l o g i s t ))) re-dug and made his whole fantasy story about it
>There are findings of anatomically modern humans and better yet, tools that they used way before the pleistocene completely fucking evolution sideways
>Evolution is literally a eugenic psy-op
you get the idea by now, continuing...
Stage 2: muh ideology
>Man is biologically, spiritually and existentially unequal
>Be a Liberal
>Insist that this unequal man should somehow, be equal
>Not only that but you insist that this unequal man that must be equal must also live in love and fraternity
>Express this love and fraternity by beggining a chimpout that makes the worst fairy tales about the inquisition look like birthday parties
>Kill the King
>Kill the Nobility
>Kill the Church
>Kill other liberals because they are not as liberal as you are
>Change government more times in a single year than a man changes his shirt in a single fucking day
>Try to wear the decaying skin of the old nobility that you killed because even though you hated them you secretly envied them because they had the one thing you could never aspire to attain a Divine Link
>Sniff the copium hard,
>Cope with the Divine Link you don´t have via moralism
>Cope with the virility you never had via faux machismo (sports, "dueling", dressing fancy and being a gymbro in the XIXth century etc...)
>Landowners? fuck no, everything is currency
>Ironically having currency as the method of transaction means the peasantry and the lower classes have even less than ever, since, at the very least before capitalism the peasants still had small parcels of land that could work to sustain themselves in times of crises, now they have a bunch of bills on a bank that they can´t fucking eat
>pretend you are peaceloving and functional while at the same time plotting a world war because you are butthurt that despite your chimpout there are still 3 ghosts of the ancien regime (The Russian Tsar, the Japanese Emperor, and Germany/Austria-Hungary)
>Napoleon the III commits suicide by cuckoldry by selling his ass to frog liberals
>Crimean war psy op begins
>Tsar fucking dies, with the death of this character the thread of the prophecy is broken, restore a save game or continue onwards with the doomed Russia you have created
>Russia is now condemned to be ruled by a weak-bitch Tsar and a cabal of masonic-jewish aligned officers (regardless of how anti-semitic they actually were, since they had no issue with aligning themselves with the frogs and the anglos)
>be so democratic that you start the Great War
>Prussian constitutionalism breaks, Bismark is BTFO just like every single monarch that tried to negotiate with the liberal-burgoise as the german socialists make Germany lose der Weltkrieg
>Should have listened to Metternicht, too late for that now
>Great War ends, backstab your "ally" showing your true colors (a masonic megastate with the intent of pushing forward Entelechy)
>Kill Stolypin for a good measure in case the man completely fucks the soviet revolution sideways
>be Churchil/Roosevelt be an anti-communist but then proceed to sell half of the world to the comunist, first at the Great War, second at Yalta and post-WWII
>Be a Communist
>The aforementioned unequal man must also share his stuff
>Social darwinism, even though darwinism is a hoax by virtue of evolution being a hoax
>The ideology is a meme and we haven´t even begun
>Postulate a bunch of psychoanalitical complexes to demean reactionaries even though most left-leaning people are amongst the most unstable and neurotic
>Be an extension of tellurism, literally a re-skin of early Christianity
>Exalt the weak and destitute in the same way Christianity did back then, and use it to destroy the third state in the same way Christianity did it to the first state
>Maniquean justice manifests itself as christcucks are butchered left and right in every single commie uprising around the world
>socialize the means of production by taking the lands of the russian nobles and redistributing them... to yourself
>peasants get redpilled the hard way, too late...
>Maniquean justice manifests itself once more as many peasants die in commie purges and ultimately, the same russian people that commited regicide and betrayed their Tsar, suffer the consequences and live through decades of Soviet oppression, gulags, hunger etc... just like the frogs did before them
>We are not communists, or democrats!
>power for the proletariat (people)
>for the people by the people
>power to the [insert nation´s name] people
>Literally the revolution of the 4th state but instead of some internationalist psyop, its a regionalist one
>Tfw niggers keep forgetting how early nationalists sided with liberals back in the XIXth century
>Hate the Hapsburg dinasty (Red flag counter:1)
>Be a socialist (Red flag counter:2)
>Hitler starts literally stealing all the german reactionary talking points, not even the idea of the Third Reich is his since that´s from Arthut Moller (Red flag counter:3)
>Create a cult of personality and a populist dictatorship akin to Mao´s china (Red flag counter:4)
>Bring every single higher principle to the masses
>Quantity above quality
>Family policies, race biologism, burgoise morals (at this point Evola is much more articulate than i am, read picrelated)
so there´s that, all three major "Ideologies" are different heads of the same hydra, all aim at collectivism, at depersonalization
at the faustian infatuation with "Life" at the dull confines of materialistic infatuation
Stage 3:muh race
>Be a NationalSocialist/Fascist
>Talk about race, spend all day talking about race
>be retarded enough to say "white race" as if race was a matter of skin colour, refuse to use the term "Aryan" because muh optics
>be double retared and use "europeans" as a racial term even though "whites" have been in prettymuch every place in the world
>be triple retarded, assign to this "white race" purely materialistic and moral values, muh cathedrals, muh planes, muh rockets, even though many inventions were invented in china before "europeans" got hold of it
>be quadruple retarded, ignore spirituality, ignore the fact that every system of metaphysics was brought by Aryans,
>Tao was taught to the chinese by Aryans, Hinuism was brought to the pahjeet by Aryans, and later reformed by Prince Siddharta, the first Buddha, who was also an aryan
>the Sun gods that the spics had, brought to them by Aryans
>Aryan literally means "Noble One"
>Zen buddhism, Aryan
>Plotinus, Greek, Aryan
>Gotama, Scytian, Aryan
>Neoplatonism, Early Hinduism, Early Buddhism, Gnosticism, OG Hellenism, the Vedas, Works and Days, the Odyssey, the Eddas,
>Be quintuple fucking retarded, regard all of the above as superstition, also regard all the origin stories that place the Aryan race´s origin in the north pole as superstition too
>Base the entire concept of race as biology and evolutionary memes even though evolution is a complete lie
>At best you have new-age retards that think hyperborea is a literal place and that Hitler is still alive in a south-pole submarine base (looking at you Serrano you fucking mongrel)
>Race is biology, in essence, racial communism, the masses of "white" people must be saved, it doesn´t matter how retarded and lobotomized they are, we have to breed more "whites" to outnumber the niggers even though the blessed "whites" are just white skinned niggers
>We must save our blessed white race that betrayed Mussolini and lynched him like a fucking petty thief in a gas station
>We must save our blessed white race of faux burgoise conformists that betrayed Hitler and proceded to become some of biggest boomers in Europe (West Germany)
>b-b-b-but muh science!
what did Krishna say to Arjuna? let the bodies hit the floor
what did fucking De Maistre said when he was confronted with the frog chimps? let the bodies hit the floor
what did Evola say at the end of "Ride the Tiger"? Death has right over Life
"Life" is a prision built by a psychopathic god with a plan, Aryans are the race of beings that are trapped here, everyone else is the bodily amalgamation of smart animals that made use of the Aryans to build their faux "Civilizations"
All religions are the same lie reiterated
All ideologies are the same lie reiterated
they all affirm "Life" wether it is a life based on "charity" or a "Life" based on "struggle"
you are a nigger, you are a black gorilla NIGGER, because you have fallen for a NIGGER PSYOP, and proceeded to worship a race of literal NIGGERS who worship a bigger NIGGER with a book and a problem with cannabis, wich in turn worshipped the PSYCHOPATH NIGGER GOD who built this entire NIGGER PSYOP
you are a NIGGER Because being in the threshold of truth, you haven´t elevated yourself beyond the psyop, but have now come under the spell of a bigger and dumber psyop, just like the failed experiment at /monster/ just like the LARPers at /Fascist/ just like everyone else, another battlefield loss in this eternal war of Divine psyops
psyop A vs psyop B, light vs dark, high vs low, its all nigger-bullshit
Metaphysics is the only truth Ontology is the only measure of Metaphysics, everyone is a nigger, everything is made by niggers, and as such, everything must die, people, animals, plants, atoms, fucking everything
now if youĺl excuse me i have shit to do, and anime girls to masturbate to
I finished reading Considerations on France by Joseph de Maistre. Some of the chapters were excellent, whereas others were mundane. I have in mind On the Violent Destruction of the Human Species as the best chapter of his little book. It reads like something out of Might is Right but more intelligent and well-written. The book is quotable, too.
I'm not a stickler for the conventional reactionaries. I prefer people like Max Stirner who put their effort into negating baseless precepts rather than establishing any new ones. That being said, I think people like de Maistre have provided invaluable critiques of modernity.
Too many philosophers put unneeded emphasis on personal experience or poorly conceived notions of an ontological reality holding precedence over reality as its conventionally perceived. Like trying to put science in front of tradition as if either by default deserve to be held with infinite respect, or personal feelings of what's moral and fair over what is conventionally thought of as so.
Yes the imams and their noble followers are destroying degeneracy by making fat stacks of cash from their retarded gullible followers who buy their bullshit trinkets and heroin and help run human trafficking rings. Every Muslim is a bigger degenerate animal than any so-called Christian or pagan when exposed to western vices, they just avoid pork as a token. Go live in fucking Morocco or Sudan to be among practitioners you mouthbreathing shitskin wop.
It doesn't have to do with Islam itself but more the people and culture it comes from. The Taliban (who are mostly Iranian speakers, not Arabs or Pakis) are marginally less shit than al-Qaeda and ((( ISIS ))) but still shitskin fundamentalists though they definitely rape and sexualize less kids, who are usually Aryan stock, than the American-backed government did and in fact used children as bait to kill police and military officers in the Afghan Army during the dash to Kabul because the ranks were that rife with pedos.
>>Race is biology, in essence, racial communism, the masses of "white" people must be saved, it doesn´t matter how retarded and lobotomized they are, we have to breed more "whites" to outnumber the niggers even though the blessed "whites" are just white skinned niggers
>>We must save our blessed white race that betrayed Mussolini and lynched him like a fucking petty thief in a gas station
>>We must save our blessed white race of faux burgoise conformists that betrayed Hitler and proceded to become some of biggest boomers in Europe (West Germany)
It's a matter of yield, you are presumably white, were born from whites. Your parents like mine were probably horrible conformists but you came out different. You yourself note that spirituality comes from the Aryan and would agree that other races seem unable to birth the spiritual. That is why the white masses have value, they are the only way that anything higher can be born.
On a personal note, I just can't help myself from trying, to want to spite those who I find reprehensible for dictating that all who look like me are to be genocided.
im having a panic attack, i am feeling extreme anxiety i don´t know what the fuck to do with my life right now, this in itself isn´t horrible, its the fact that i am alone, nobody is going to help me and nobody can help me
i want to cry but crying will not solve things, i am going to sleep now and try to calm myself down
fuck. you're cool
autism is a mental illness. it's not even funny anymore i swear
I've been getting into novels and light novels on MyAnimeList recently. It's precious to see thoughtfulness in these works rather than mere action. A little action can carry a story, but too much diminishes its value.
When we watch a show, what we see is largely the "surface." Mainly in reading a novel does one find depth. This is the nature of these mediums. What I specifically mean, for example, is that in watching the Stand Alone Complex episodes, I would see continual action and characters talking, but in reading the first of its light novels, I noticed that the characters had thoughts and feelings that could not be expressed in a show without drastically increasing the length of each episode and rendering it monotonous.
>tfw rapeman (faggot) bans & deletes the furry thread on /b/ to pretend to be an ebic oldfag
>tfw wasted my time making a furry gore tegaki reply for no raisin
I'm still here as a matter of habit. I wonder where all the people who leave these places go to. I doubt that all or even most of them end up on places like Discord. Do they just quit online social interaction entirely, or do they pursue some alternative like IRC, deep web forums, or (god knows) CB radio? While we'll almost certainly never get this data, I would like to imagine a pie chart of the paths that users who leave places like this take.
Since I've seen how slow this place and others are that I used to cherish, I've switched to browsing anon.cafe/k/ more often. I'm a loner both online and in real life, though I like it. It's as if the world flies by me, and I am of a different world than the others of this world.
I'd like it if this place or /hikki/ got more traffic but it's not dead like the latter, there're spikes of substantial activity.
I got a life. So I suppose you could consider it "quit online social interaction entirely".
I haven't posted in quite a while because I just didn't have anything to say. My life has been fairly boring these past few months. However, I think that there is something more than that. It's not just these place, I've been mostly absent from imageboards as a whole. Because after really analizing it, I came to the conclusion that most of the time I am in one I am either angry or sad. I don't feel like I'm learning or interacting with anyone in any meaningful way like I did before.
Who knows? Maybe, it comes with age. After all, it's been quite a few years.
In any case, I don't think that rambling matters, I'll probably be here tomorrow just like I'm here today.
I used to not dream a lot, but this past year I have dreams relatively frequently, and they're pretty much never positive. They tend to be scenarios that could happen in real life but they often have an element or two of surrealism. And for some reason I am never aware that it's a dream. It's been getting quite irritating.
I honestly think it's probably just a lot of anons moving on with their lives. The (perhaps unfortunate) truth is that the hikki neet lifestyle just isn't that tenable long term for most people unless they're independently wealthy or entitled to some kind of government pension. What I believe happened is that most of the users just moved on with their lives. That's not to say that everyone here suddenly became turbo normalfags overnight, but I do think that their circumstances probably changed.
I always got the impression that most people here and on similar boards were late bloomers aged somewhere between their late teens and early 30s. Despite how most people here might have complained about failed normalfags, cyborgs, etc. and how they'd never be a normalfag like them, I believe that most of the anons who left probably just moved on with their lives and pursued work and/or education. That's what happened to me. I was a hikki and a neet for much of my 20s until I stumbled into my first proper job that was basically just handed to me by a desperate family member. Ever since then I've been working and or studying which, naturally, leaves much less time for internet shitposting. Hell, some of the anons probably even made friends and or formed romantic relationships. Either way, they probably fill their time with other activities that have since become more important.
In essence, my theory is that most of the people here were spergy late-bloomers who essentially just grew up and left the nest.
I'd been saying that for years. Them moving on isn't what bothers me either but the chance that they forget where they came from and how they were molded for better and worse, as if it meant nothing to them, and how much of their beliefs were held because they were reinforced by the community they once belonged to.
Old /r9k/ had easy topics to post endlessly about. I think the early push to get robots to stop making their hatred of our surroundings their defining characteristic interrupted that natural flow of posts. Remove that and naturally other communities could easily fill in the void of what they'll be thinking about, there wouldn't be a need to post in this particular board.
That's kind of what's happened to me. There were more things to talk about back in the day and I don't feel the need to vent or talk about feels as often as I once did. I only come here every so often because /r9k/ was my home board for so long and I don't want this place to die out.
I take back the nonsense I've posted and the sentimental, naive view I've held before.
You highlighted the problem. I thought it mainly applied to incel sites and trash heaps like wizchan and 4chan. Now, I believe 8chan /r9k/ to be no exception, not even a partial one. 8/r9k/ was a normalnigger flock from the start, and most of the posters were donning masks.
What sickens me is not that people are forced to work and get by in their outer life but that the conformism colors their inner life; in fact, it was their true face all along. Getting a job does not make a person do a 180 unless they were a liar beforehand.
It would have been better had 8/r9k/ and magicchan never existed. They were founded on the basis of "too good to be true," and their lying by upholding the idea that they were a den of real outcasts rather than a nest of vipers makes them even more sinister than sites that lack this pretense.
To add onto that, I've never been a NEET. Even in my senior year of high school, when I was taking five AP and four dual credit college classes, I browsed /r9k/ somewhat frequently (with whatever spare time I had). The real explanation I could see for someone not having enough time on their hands to browse this place is if most of them were straight-up liars, perhaps even fooling themselves, and in reality, being saddled with social obligations, online friends who they spent time with, etc.
Because I was born in a latin american shithole, I never had a chance at neetdom without it meaning eventually living among extremely violent nigger people.
This being said, being 30 since yesterday, I can still say that most normalniggers deserve to be genocided, every single politician should be showered with boiling oil and that 2D > 3DPD.
i feel you robot. i haven't posted in an imageboard for a while, i'm still a friendless virgin.
that didn't change, but I got a job now to sustain my life. after all, i can't run on >tfw
we are ageing, and we have voiced our frustration for quite an amount of years.
So naturally, we have come to a time where we want some peace.
I'm so fucking bored.
american wagefag here
so i'm thinking about biting the bullet and moving the fuck out of my parents house and getting an apartment for myself. I'm really gonna squeeze my budget, but I can do it if I just start working my balls off. I've started applying for jobs at local casinos but if those fall through, I'm gonna have to take extra hours, maybe an extra day. I think my boss likes me, so maybe if I just lay my dick on the table and explain that I'm consistently useful and that if he can't pay me better than local businesses, I'm just gonna get a new job more locally b/c the apartments I'm looking at are like 10-20 miles away from where I work (the bus will take me 2+ hours to get to work).
Anyway, maybe some anons have actual life experience not the clueless NEETs and can explain to me the process of getting an apartment. I heard I have to produce my paychecks to show I can pay rent--I'm just gonna staple my balls to the wall and start putting in the work now--but from your anons' experience what should I know when getting an apartment in the city and what questions do i need to ask the sales ladies? Like how do i avoid getting the roach-infested apartment?
(context: my budget for monthly rent is max $900±$9.99)
you have to factor in the furniture, electricity, internet & water bills.
Aside from that, you should schedule a visit to check the flat before renting it out. That's the only way you can check for yourself if it's roach infested or not.
If you are used to live in your parents house, you may be accustomated to relative quietness. This silence you may or may not find in a flat, depending on your neighbours (mine was playing the battery FROM 7PM to 2AMMMMMM).
Member to always be nice to your parents and not burn bridges, you never know when you have to abandon mission and fall back.
Also try to look for one which gets some sun time, to avoid mold.
Whatever your decision, it's gonna be daijobu anon.
Where is everyone?
I hate having to rely on wizchan, but are there any alternatives with more activity?
Please stop killing yourselves...
I've moved to the fediverse.
How about telling /b/ and /v/ to visit the other boards on this site. Imageboard activity works of herd mentality exposition; if someone sees a board isn't popular everyone assumes to be such and it stays dead, or anons are too lazy to talk about anything or even venture outside of their comfort zone.
I am the latter. I've been too absorbed into this state of lethargy that I don't even know what to say anymore.
Maybe I can talk about how I got caught stealing in the supermarket today cause I'm an autistic retard faggot.
and these niggers charged me 100 bugs
It's weird. I can't remember the last time I had any sort of coherent dream.
Recently I haven't even gotten one nights worth of proper sleep.
I'm never at rest, but not awake either.
Go ahead, it's something, I don't think it's going to gain you derision either for telling.
I had been stealing several times in that store before. Just penny items I'd be slipping into my pocket every once in a while. So I probably got a little ahead of myself and ignored pretty much every precaution there is to take when stealing, especially thinking that the cameras which cover pretty much every inch of that nigger store were just bait to scare thiefs away. Well, apparently it's not. They have some security personal watching over that and it's no wonder they noticed me, as bold as I was behaving.
Granted, when I walked out of that store and saw that big secuirity security guy and that group of wageslaves waiting, I was scared to shit.
They are propably used to getting some resistance from burglars, this being the most nigger infested, worse than chernobyl part of town.
But I'm a walking corpse these days, I just went along, feeling like a dumb nigger, not because I was stealing, but because I was caught.
The personal then escorted me into this storage room where they asked me to empty all my pockets, which I did, revealing a can of pepper spray which I had already forgotten about long ago. Indeed I was thankful having this much luck in such an unlucky situation, not having carried my spring knife that day, which I usually do, and which would surely have gotten me into legal trouble. At least pepper spray is not illegal carrying as of yet.
I was then presented with the option of getting reported to the police or paying 100 shekels right away, which I did, being the little faggot pussy that I am, never having been in a situation like this one before.
I still regret that. The worth of those items stolen was around 5€ which would hardly have resulted in any serious consequences. But maybe it's also good never to have any such record. I'll take it as lesson money.
It surely won't stop me from stealing again, I'll do it again, be it just for the thrill.
Really, I don't even need these things, living in total abundance. I just want to do some damage to rainbow faggot flag flying globohomo corporate chains and I'm bored, so I like to take some risk which is missing in my mundane, lethargic life.
I'll just have to moderate the risk a little bit. Going for a chain which doesn't have as much surveillance, opting for more expensive items like alcohol or coffe, which I may resell afterwards.
I mean, I can only recommend every loser neet to try doing something like that once in a while. Be it just slipping a fucking chocolate bar into your pocket. It's better than doing nothing.
Where? How? It feels like sitting at a school cafeteria table of a friend group you don't belong to and leaning into their conversation.
The most expensive items I've stolen were capsules and medicine from drug chains which is valid because they can be as much as $40. I'm pretty paranoid about cameras and I be sure to pocket what I'm taking out of their angles and eyes of employees. One time I thought I got caught taking something because the door was a pull and not a push, and I freaked out and went into the back to return the item I took in case cops were already called but they weren't so I just took it again and left.
Wrong word, it was expensive so it made sense to steal it but I always be sure to steal little items from time to time.
That's a good description. That's all I'll say.
I'll be a wizard in a year if I get to live this far. I've begun to come in peace with it, the hatred brought by
>tfw no gf
has been steadily dampening. I think I can come in terms with the fact that i'll likely remain a friendless virgin.
I wish this feeling of inner peace would remain.
I don't like browsing wizchan, too much hatred in their (just like in the incels forum) and it's mentally exhausting as I am nearing the 30 yo mark.
Nowadays, I lurk in tohno-chan. Quite a chill place.
I'm always exhausted. I feel like watching myself in the 3rd person.
Are we basically reaching the final conclusions of "tikkun olam" (what we might call the growth of a kike control grid)? Considering how anything that contributes to the destruction of Amalek (us) is "good," while anything standing in the way of this is "evil," when institutions are fully subverted they will turn their attention more towards bodies and minds (transhumanism). While the gayop of 'viruses to necessitate bioweapon vaccines' is obvious (as well as literally poisoning our food, water and air), I'm convinced what we're experiencing is a split of a hyperreality from reality; the normalcattle whose brainwaves are lined up with what's expected of them continuously shift into this hyperreality, while we're the odd ones out clinging to natural reality. Total control down to the thoughts in people's heads is the desired outcome, so any brainwaves that conflict with this are "evil," and all the retarded golem will lose their shit if they encounter anyone exhibiting them. Because the hyperreality/reality split is an insurmountable gulf, we are outcast from soyciety and there is no social or political solution (within 'normal' discourse) drastic enough to counter-effect what has been done. But since all this shit is an inversion of natural order it's inherently unstable, so it's just a matter of waiting until it collapses? That's pretty much my only reason to keep living here.
>so it's just a matter of waiting until it collapses?
short answer yes
long answer, it goes like this...
1. its not the first time it happens
it develops in cycles that contain cycles that make other cycles, the 4th state of today, is a Degradation of the 3rd state of yesterday, wich in turn is a subversion of the 2nd State etc...
one might think that ancient states like Rome or Greece are "ancient" but in reality the true ancient states are to be found all the way back in the Pleistocene and beyond, these primordial states in of themselves are restorations that have taken place before even more primordial versions of the 4th state collapsed
2. all of the events take place way after they have been planned
the Great War was planned by (from that point onward) subverted Freemasons at least 20 years before it happened, modern EU has its origins on Kalergi, that´s at least 50 years before it even happened, i see a lot of faggots getting redpilled with corona-chan thinking they´re hot shit and talking about muh chemtrails, when in fact, Geoengineering has been a thing since before World War 2, vaccines have been a hoax since their inception, mass nigger migration has been happening since the 60´s (at least in France), the complete failure and breakdown of modern "welfare states" was proven and done in the 80´s and 90´s with Sweden wayyy before the "sweden yes" memes
These 2 keys, among many others, are the secrets of the Capo, while the rest pray to different totemic entities in exchange of power, peace of mind, and the fleeting sense of "being in control", these totemic entities in exchange ask for the contemplation of strict rules and the defence of their dialectics
there are more things to being a Capo of course, but these will come at other times,that being said part of being a Capo is being experimental
I know I'm beating a dead horse, but point 2 is why boomers are even more faggoty than they normally get credit for: they lived pseudo-hedonistic lives as everything was accelerating to shit around them, and now that their own offspring are dealing with the consequences, they can just sit back and virtue signal as if you're nuts for seeing things without their rose-tinted glasses. Even pre-internet you could figure out polio was from DDT, or we're flooded with orcs because ((( Celler ))) changed immigration laws in '65 (in the US), but they still lived on the remnants of a functional society decade after decade and did nothing... The kikes are just doing what parasites naturally do to host nations, its White submission that deserves the most shame for allowing things to get so bad and allowing us to suffer through such a perverse situation. And in a sense, the kikes inadvertently created a class of bad goyim for whom death is an improvement over their current existence, and know that argumentation is not the proper response to parasitism.
>it's just a matter of waiting until it collapses? That's pretty much my only reason to keep living here.
So if you've come to this conclusion that the system is doomed for collapse and you still have a desire to live, what justification do you have for not taking the initiative to get in shape for the worst?
The wizard lifestyle is not sustainable in the long run, that should be obvious at this point. As much as we are egocentric introverts, sooner or later we will have to put our isolation to rest and face the reality that we truly live in a society.
Really, getting physical exercise has done a lot for my mental clarity that I did not think myself possible. It's not just some improvebruh trope.
interacting with fellow countrymen who have similar political views as I do also reduced my anxiety greatly. You won't have to physically interact with anybody, but you will have to leave the realm of anonymity. Surely, there are "fringe" internet communities like that in every western country. Just knowing there are other (hopefully real) people who care is enough for now.
Maybe I've fallen for a massive gayop. But the other alternative would be to do nothing.
At least get /fit. That's all I'm saying
get them to use matrix
Just found this post scrolling through the old breads.
I like the analogy. I think it's beatifully written. Just wanted to let you know that, if that Anon is still lurking here.
>taking the initiative to get in shape for the worst?
I've been doing that for years already. You are correct, with the exception of saying get "/fit." What will be useful for the scenario we're talking about has little relation to anything those twink animals are interested in.
>i see a lot of faggots getting redpilled with corona-chan
It's a repeat of 2000s conspiracy theory culture with the same amount of intelligence except instead of it being uninitiated kids, pre-teens, and adults with already developed suspicion it's consumed by milquetoast teenagers and grown adults who should've known for years and are entrenched in their own biases; the same faggots who use schizo as an internet buzzword like autist. It feels silly but they're gentrifying the years we spent accumulating the knowledge and enlightenment we gained into a single inaccurate word like it's a subculture. Now anyone who has theories prefaces themselves as sounding schizo and people will tell them to take meds and or think you're just saying all of this to be an epic schizo yourself. Not that much fundamentally different from being called a racist or crazy but it's done with humor entrenched in a single word which is more effective to shame people.
>mass nigger migration has been happening since the 60´s (at least in France)
Same goes for Turks in Germany and for whatever reason Sweden did by importing Punjabis and Arabs.
>the complete failure and breakdown of modern "welfare states" was proven and done in the 80´s and 90´s with Sweden wayyy before the "sweden yes" memes
Could you mind telling me about this, I heard it about it briefly a decade ago but assumed it passed.
>grown adults who should've known for years and are entrenched in their own biases
You know these boomniggers are hopeless when the exact social ills enabled by unleashing the kikes is blamed on Nazism. Literal jew communists will be called Nazis and fascists. This is why I consider boomers to be spiritual jews, while zoomers are spiritual niggers. And since having a discourse with either is like talking to a tick or a baboon, respectively, I find the window for community-building to be very narrow. (Not like anyone my age is much better, these are just the more well-defined themes.)
>2000s conspiracy theory culture
What memories I have are engineering-oriented spergouts that just obscured everything, and it wasn't until the following decade that things like Mossad and destabilization of the ME for greater pissrael were more frequently discussed. The more recent iteration was 'lab-leak' spergouts with very few pointing out that viruses were fake, gay and talmudic from the start. And then zoomers will get pissed off if you tell them 5G radiation produces "flu"-like symptoms and was rolled out starting in 2019 in Wuhan, because you're personally threatening the download speed of their gay furry porn.
I believe most sexual evil comes from the forceful suppression of desires.
Look at the child fiddling catholic church, look at all those afghans sodomizing little boys.
The goal should be to channel these passions to something productive, whatever that may be, but not to forcefully suppress them, or worse trying unsuccessfully to suppress them and beating yourself down if you can't do it.
Watching pornography should be seen as the ultimate evil, but "nofappers" through their constant denial of their own urges are turning this poison into a forbidden fruit. Counting every hours they haven't touched their dong, making batches on leddit, and at some point ending up worse than before.
Once you are in this state, you will see everything female in a sexual way but at the same time deny yourself that these urges exist. It's shizophrenic, mentally ill.
The only way to take control of your own lowly desires is literally to just stop caring(tm). Touch your dong whenever you feel like it.
Your own masturbatory sexuality will get boring soon enough and you won't participate in it more than once a week. Combine that with regular exercise (mental or physical) and you won't spend another moment shaming yourself for your lowly passions. I think this is how true, natural purity is attained.
JUST DON'T EVER WATCH ((( PORN )))
It's that easy.
Once you realize there is nothing to suppress and nothing to lose in not participating in a poisonous, evil activity, you will be free from those shackles.
It's not always easy to visualize the degeneracy of our timeline, but for many normalniggers these days it's normal to be desensitized to the point that they can't even get a hard on fucking real roasties.
For them "nofap" just a way to "recover", so as to be able to participate in more degeneracy.
Tl;dr Nofap is a meme. Don't fall for it.
Recently I've really lost my sense of time.
I think you're pretty much right, but the main issue is that we're in such a goddamned unnatural situation to begin with. The best I can do is mentally simulate a decent relationship via a VN, then hope my mind can flesh something similar out in the dream state. I don't want my natural instincts to be dulled into non-existence, but there's a lot of truth in what you said.
This "don't make a forbidden fruit out of a poison" is the central theme of the "Allen Carr method" and a very important idea I got from it.
Overall I can't recommend reading the book though, at least not the hackbook, adapted to pornography which I read.
The main reason being that it doesn't make a clear distinction between masturbation and pornography, it puts all into the single "PMO" category.
It is also important to note that sex is different to drug induced pleasure. The book is written with normalniggers in mind who have regular contact to women and the option to remove their excess mana by other ways than orgasm.
This "new way of thinking" that it proposes is not enough for deeply repressed males.
You can't simply dispose of all sexual outlet.
I think "simulating" these kinds of relationship is also not good. The best way is to visualize and sexualize your own idealized picture of a female and be as little influenced by visual media as possible.
Exactly. This whole scamdemic thing has "converted" a lot of niggercattle to "the right side", but not really converted. It has only turned them against the current thing(tm) and as soon as they notice a little inconsistency in the reporting of their "alternative media" outlets, mainly jewtin cocksucking, they are as quick to switch back and to revoke ALL of their new "views" as they "converted" before, denying everything that should be self evident by just seeing what is in front of them.
Anyways, I think it a little shizophrenic that a lot of the wizard type imageboard dwellers here seem to be into polshit as well. I always saw this board more as a rejection of all life.
How do you seperate the two?
The egoistic boomnigger who shamelessly embraces contemporary poz politics for momentary social gain and to not get into conflict with the system which has nurtered him and your parent on the other side?
Your waifu must never leave your head
>I always saw this board more as a rejection of all life.
I simply wanted to know why everything was so wrong and retarded, and if in the course of years/decades that path steers you through such territory, so be it. Anyone who outright denies the kikes' corrosive influence this far into the game is a reality-denying traitor, but the kind of withdrawal you might see here is understandable. But anyways, what we're looking at here is basically just two sides of the same gay dialectic, yep.
If we had to be birthed into this place and those individuals involved behave like golem, you can try to be diplomatic but still accept things for what they are. Unfortunately my experience involved too much of me letting my guard down, and such people tend to use that as an opening to try and manipulate your life. I would be very surprised if any of you guys had a father who attempted to instill real survival skills in you for the sake of any sustained wellbeing. I can't imagine being so disconnected from reality that you think a young man will be taken care of if he just goes along with the flow of society, so I see it as borderline malicious and demonic, neglect at the least. All this treachery is so tiresome, but I'm glad you guys are still around.
I can't put too much blame on their upbringing in my childhood. My old man went camping quite a few times with me. Explored "lost places" together, did some handcrafting stuff. Things like that.
Just when reaching my teens that all came to an abrupt end and.
They started sending me to summer camps which I hated as much as anything. At this time my old man also started working in a city far away. Only saw him ever other weekend, so my relations gradually worsened.
They just expect you to take everything as is.
I think these days its normal to just stop exercising any kind of influence as soon as your child reaches its teens.
I'd like to think my story is not too much unlike others my age especially fellow anons on this board who are obviosly looking for an escape from this empty husk of a society.
>I can't imagine being so disconnected from reality that you think a young man will be taken care of if he just goes along with the flow of society
That's the ideals in upbringing the talmudic decade long indoctrination has instilled, to make pleasure driven, empty husks who are incapable of forming their own thoughts, or to make a stand for themselfes.
A weak excuse for not seeing what is in front of them, but they really have been brought up in such absolute believe in this system and that everything before it was literally hitler - "satan" himself - they can not possibly leave this line of thought. They are improsined in this judaic prison of lies and likewise have brought up their offspring that way.
>Unfortunately my experience involved too much of me letting my guard down, and such people tend to use that as an opening to try and manipulate your life.
I can look past all that and have recently improved my relations with them anyways.
Take precautions, don't let your guard down then. Always remember they are living a seperate reality.
Still I noticed it is worth it giving it a try. They are still your parents. In academic, practical life matters that are beyond the current poz I think you can still benefit greatly. And by practicing general socilization you can attempt to safe other younger family members from the pain you had to endure.
The sooner you take them out of this lie the better.
sorry if any of this doesn't make any sense.
I dont even know what I was rambling on about. Doesn't make matters better that I typed this on my fucking phone.
They also had children from previous marriages before and were quite old when they got.me so I turned out a sperg. Another genetic, predetermined reason why I might have ended up here.
>believe in this system and that everything before it was literally hitler - "satan" himself
It's a purely conditioned response you see again and again -- for example, any honest re-evaluation of gender dynamics would 'send us back to the 50s' when women were kept in chains and constantly hooked up to milking devices. Because they seek social validation over Truth, they're incapable of understanding ((( feminism ))) was literally women being weaponized against us, so that society is destabilized and marriage/birth rates of White goyim drop. It's just another way people's perceptions are fucked with, where female nature being kept in check so that families can actually function is 'repression,' while whoring themselves out and tearing down the pillars around them in their retardation is 'liberation.'
Regarding "saving younger family members," if such people were actually in my vicinity and I were financially independent, I'd do my best to help them reach an Aryan ideal. This is partly why I'm so harsh in my categorization of other Whites, too many boomers and x-ers are totally fine with their daughters fucking niggers or whatever corruption it may be as long as their money and 'social standing' are untouched. I'm outcast from soyciety but my racial soul is intact, while they went along to get along and words can't describe how disappointed I am in all these motherfuckers.
>physical exercise has done a lot for my mental clarity that I did not think myself possible. It's not just some improvebruh trope.
That was the selling point all of them were telling me at least the ones I was exposed to. Did you just think they were telling you to exercise as a timepasser and lose weight?
>I always saw this board more as a rejection of all life.
If it were then what'd be the point of posting at all? What would you discuss or even rally around for why you were rejecting life and society, it feels like you'd have to restrict yourself as what you could talk about. All roads lead to Rome.
I also can't entirely blame my parents. One example, my dad always did DIY projects and while I participated in them he never really taught me anything or do anything by myself nor did he make an effort to so there was no point of being involved but I could've exerted myself on my own behalf to collaborate on something and was smart enough to do so but I just expected them to cater to me, as they spoiled me and bragged about it to boot. And something in them snaps one day, and all that was intelligent or upstanding about them is cynically discarded and they become sloven and monotonous. It's not something immune to their generation either, it happened to each succeeding one at younger ages and I only have potshot answers as to why.
Lets say I'm a 10+ year neet who has been living off his mother since he dropped out of HS (no GED), and has now been blindsided by his mother suddenly entering end-of-life care. I have never had a job and have no clue what I need to do to survive after she passes on and is no longer able to take care of the 'adult' things. What exactly do I need to manage now? There's monthly bills like internet and electricity, and yearly bills like insurance and vehicle rego. What else? Her estate and everything already has my name on the registration, so there shouldn't be any way for me to lose that stuff so long as I pay the taxes, right? What's the actual process for having someone... Taken care of? After they pass away.
And what sort of gibs could I possibly get on? I'm probably an undiagnosed aspie but not bad enough that I can't function on my own.
I've crunched some numbers and think I can subsist at my current standard of living with around 16-20k a year.
I live in the US southeast, for reference. Anyone else go through something similar willing to give an anon some advice?
>What's the actual process for having someone... Taken care of? After they pass away.
I assume that is just explained to you when she dies either by the hospital or someone else involved. It's like not like they hand you a corpse and let you figure it out.
>And what sort of gibs could I possibly get on? I'm probably an undiagnosed aspie but not bad enough that I can't function on my own.
Probably depends on the state. Just look up the various welfare systems for disability and see if mental disability applies. Then see a shrink and explain that you're probably autistic and haven't worked for your entire life and they'll probably sign off on you getting some sort of disability payments assuming your state has such a thing.
Otherwise typically you get welfare checks if you're under a certain annual earnings and prove that you are looking for work. If you want real work I doubt having a GED would make any difference.
>If it were then what'd be the point of posting at all? What would you discuss or even rally around for why you were rejecting life and society, it feels like you'd have to restrict yourself as what you could talk about
I'm not him, and I may be wrong for all I know, but I'll lay out the case for it. Here are some reasons:
(1) There are quite a few people online who subscribe to the idea that humans are like a disease to the planet. Look at what anti-natalists and radical environmentalists think. Most of them would be unsuitable for taking their views to the extreme, but the fact that these opinions are publicly voiced by so many people means they have some traction. I doubt there were anywhere near as many people like this in the old days.
(2) A movement to end civilization or humanity could depict nature as a positive value or a lesser evil. If it did not concern itself with nature, its own religion/philosophy could be the positive value, as cults have done.
(3) There are many people who are disgusted or horrified by small massacres but treat the idea of humanity going extinct or getting wiped out more acceptingly. There was a quote on this from a prominent thinker that I forgot, but suffice it to say, there are quite a few people of this type as well.
(4) The deaths of 10, 30, or 100 people killed with direct means (like a gun or fire) are "concrete." Deaths on the scale of 100 million or 7 billion are "abstract," unlikely to be carried out on a face-to-face basis and potentially unfolding in a downright dull manner initially, such as someone spraying another person's face with a modified virus.
(5) There would be many people motivated to a "rejection of all (human) life" on the basis of personal reasons who might support a group or individual with those goals even if their reasonings were different.
(6) There are anarcho-primitivists and reactionary rightists. The most extreme ones may want to raze down civilization and be willing to take the most radical measures necessary to achieve it for their positive (i.e. non-nihilistic) ideals.
I think there would be nothing impossible about assembling a "dream team" of those who opposed civilization and even humanity as a whole. Aum Shinrikyo once did something like that, just that they lacked the IQ and the advanced biotechnology to pull it off. Maybe things will be different in the coming decades.
Still, it would be hard to find anyone willing to join who would be suitable material because ~99% of edgelords are not. Maybe 1 out of 10,000 or 100,000 people would be compatible, and among those, you would have to find people with the technical skills necessary to do genetic engineering.
I have my own concerns about it, namely that it would be an ambitious and time-taking pursuit, and even if it succeeded against all odds, the taste of victory would be short-lived. I have no intent of founding such a group, and I intend to live peacefully.
But there is little reason to think in the future that our global civilization will last forever and that there will not be any more designer/lab leak pandemics (on a far worse scale), as there already were in 1977 and 2020. Our civilization is complex and interconnected. It becomes more so over a long enough time scale as a trend. As a trend, more destructive technologies are created. Protective capabilities tend to arrive after the destructive ones, and they are not always effective. There is no realistic way for civilization to suppress all competitive processes that occur inside it even if it established a panopticon. Thus, I see the collapse of civilization over the next few hundred years as being close to 100%. However, it's debatable as to whether or not it will fall in this century.
I dislike the focus on climate change and AI by the media because it distracts from the more likely fundamental causes of our collapse if it were to happen this century.
>I may be wrong for all I know
You're evidently a de-racinated midwit who believes in viruses, but at least you have self-awareness. Maybe start by asking who is most susceptible to the "human" extinction op, and who would benefit from them believing in it.
its a way of talking to myself, also when i get retarded replies or i get to see the threshold of retarded sophism like people defending RNG in games and the like i am reminded of why i do the things that i do, its a daily reminder that i am in fact, not insane and niggers are gonna nig
>1, 2, 3 ,4 and 5
those are usually bitchboys with an agenda, they don´t mean half of the things they say, they are in it for the feel good and to sync with the totemic entities of their choice,
aside from Varg Vikernes, Kazynsky and Myself, i have yet to see anyone actually totering this, most people are either a "In-System" ideologue following their favourite brand of materialistic plebeianism, or a "3rd Positionist" choosing their own brand of materialistic plebeianism with national jingoism and aesthetic atheism thrown into the mix
>I think there would be nothing impossible about assembling a "dream team"
that´s bitchblood stuff, i don´t want le epin brigade of yet another brand of "In-System" ideology, some off-brand pachamama shit, i want to personally tear apart the fabric of space and time with my own hands, and inflict unending pain upon others
>ambitious and time-taking pursuit
an impossible pursuit, you need the logistics of getting enough firepower or musclepower to level any and all opposition, plus the skills and the omnipotence to do it, because even if you do something akin to a schoolshooting, how do you manage to kill EVERYONE without a single person escaping through some backdoor or succefully hiding in a closet etc...
>collapse of civilization
never gonna happen, history is a fabricated lie, all important events have been backed by one or multiple forces, the world wars were designed and executed by jews and freemasons, so did the French revolution and the American revolution, the fall of Rome, the rise of christianity... the jews and freemasons whom themselves are ordered by higher control groups and those control groups by totemic entities and are ultimated backed by a subvertive inertia where as certain entities like Gotama or Plotinus dissapear from the world, they are replaced by 3rd state faggots that thing they have everything figured out wihtout realizing that most if not all their doctrines are part of the subversion, and believe the highest level of civilization is a conformist mass of organized workers (Fascism)
its never gonna happen because collapses do not exist as "organic" events springing forth from the non-existant demons of social causes and economic causes, they are planned and executed, we are in the early stages of the endgame, THE Endgame, a Human Instrumentality Project-Tier Endgame, when this Endgame reaches terminal phase there will be a gap, and in that gap it will be seen if the 3rd State retards win, and restore themselves to an earlier stage of decay to re-begin the process of death and retardation, the Leviathan wins and everyone is merged into an amorphous blob of matter ruled by a Immortal Archon, or if i Win and will impose genocide upon existance itself
and you are a faggot that thinks history has a meaning to itself, believes in "evolution", nukes existing, geoingineering being a hoax and the holocaust being the biggest and most important conspiracy when in reality the entirety of the XXth century with special emphasis on World War II has been a mass scale psyop
fuck off with your smug nigger antics, one of this days im going to metamorphose into a Baron of Hell from Doom and im going to start tearing niggers like you apart
I am really feeling down lately, mainly because of daily ordinary life concerns that shouldn't impact my mentality as much but they still do. As a consequence I indulge in more and more escapism which only makes time fly and sucks me deeper into a spiral of despair.
I am not doing the things I enjoy anymore let alone things of value. I feel like I need to have a radical experience something akin to a nuke to break free from this.
>faggot that thinks [things I never said anything about]
Look, I get you're mad about existence itself, but wasn't this realm hijacked long ago? Why does this have to be about existence in general when it's more like a shitty pocket of it?
>if the 3rd State retards win, and restore themselves to an earlier stage of decay to re-begin the process of death and retardation
Also, I get what you mean, but I think better alternatives could be pursued once freed from parasitism, both temporal and whatever higher level it's occurring at.
i could write a reply, then i´d be wasting time on opinions and get called a schizo for [insert ammount of times i´ve been called a schizo]
so i´ll just give the last few bits of discernable information and obfuscate as much as i can of my own life from this point on
point is, if you are gonna call somebody a faggot on the charges of knowing something then at least explain it, you don´t just mock someone for now knowing XYZ about viruses or viruses not being real then you explain why is that so, you don´t just smugly withdraw information like a bitch and talk down to others, its the same shit
"hehe he is a filthy pagan he doesn´t know his ancestors were cristians" he says while forgetting that christianity is a hebrew religion based on faith
"hehe he is a cristjew, he doesn´t know christainity is a jewish religion" he say while forgetting that christianity unfucked itself temporarily durign the cycles of the grail
"hehe he still thinks corona was real" he says while forgetting that he himself is unaware of other greater conspiracies
"hehe he is not part of X therefore he is Y and dumb"
the same tribalist nigger song and dance, just like the Tribal niggers of ancient africa, kneeling before symbols and sigils, reciting the gajimba prayers and dances, fearing spirits and worshipping nature in whatever form it comes
when Wisdom is absent, there Faith comes, this is the First Fall
when Faith is absent there comes Knowledge, this is the Second Fall
when Knowledge is absent, there comes Dogma, this is the Third Fall
the Last Fall, is Oblivion, where quantity comes into its own, when everything is reduced to a uniform mass of mediocrity and plasticity, wether this is the ultimate conformist ethnostate, a hellscape transracial distopia, or whatever your imagination wants to write
it wasn´t hijacked, it was designed like this, Horror without measure, Limitless Disease, Dhukka
high speed internet wasn´t a mistake, internet is a tool, a tool cannot do anything on its own, you ruined the internet
you ruined the world, you dug your grave, now eat shit, and Die, get lost in the cycles of guilt and live in it for the years of years, the centuries of centuries, the millennia of millennia
>Ackshually, the correct term is CSEM (Child Sexual Exploitation Material)
The push for adopting this acronym was astroturfed by the ((( porn industry ))), right? The association of child abuse and porn in the public consciousness was a threat to its mainstream standing. Like all tranny lingo, it's intentionally designed to discourage discussion by using more words and exponentially more syllables to convey equal, if not less, information. Like all tranny lingo, speech police disrupt discussion, ignoring what has been said to critique the choice of words. Just a thought from observing mastur-de-bators and virtue fappers, who have done more harm to the toon porn scene than any "antis" could ever hope to accomplish.
>then at least explain it
I talked about how viruses are fake, the 5G connection, and so on enough already in this thread, so any more and I become the "schizo." I've also kept my criticisms of people here very restrained.
>it wasn´t hijacked, it was designed like this
Even if that's the case, how is it the only realm of existence? Why do you want me stuck in a cycle, when you should know I'm also not someone who wants to be here the way a normalnigger does? Maybe you're not a spiritual relative, just a wayward demon.
>Even if that's the case, how is it the only realm of existence?
it is not, read Guenon for a reference, the "Origin Point" if there really is any origin, is Metaphysical Infinite, everything springs from there in layers, the exclusivist idea of only one plane of existance is unsustainable, it would be as if saying that, because a circle cannot be a triangle at the same time, there cannot be a circle and a triangle
>Why do you want me stuck in a cycle
i don´t even know what i want with myself, how could i want you to be anything at all
> I've also kept my criticisms of people here very restrained.
enough to call someone a nimwit
all the temples have closed their doors, either i have found them wanting, or they have cast me away, i need somewhere to develop and grow, a place to interact with the nakedness of existance itself, wherever i go, it is filled with psychopaths or lemmings, untill i find no such place, i will never begin to undo the Cycles of Guilt, a mercurial being has its eyes cast upon me, mania guides as much as it cleaves my sanity, i will never do poetry
I fucking despise my gluttony and sloth. I know that I must work to change it, and I try, but it feels like my willpower is just enough to attempt a change but never enough to be disciplined enough to go through with that change. At least the challenge will be worth it to give me the will to succeed.
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I literally used the term "midwit," which is hardly even an insult -- it's like saying "you're not dumb, just not smart enough to figure some things out by now." Or maybe they just happened to never run across certain information, I don't know.
Anyways, sorry I upset you.
nah, the thing about nu-metal and alternative rock is that it makes me feel both homicidal and suicidal at the same time, hardcore types of metal are cool for people who are into music, im not into music, im into feeling things and staying inside my inner monologue because im numb most of the time
that and postponing my writting projects because reasons
ask janny to cycle it
what does it mean?
there are no janitors here, there´s only the BO, wich stands for "Board Owner"
Feels That Don´t Deserve Their Own Thread
usually it would be "Questions" instead of "Feels" but because of the board culture (this being a board that consists mostly of outcasts, with the melancholy that comes with it) "Feels" is more adequate, at least that´s what i think, i don´t know who first used "Feels" instead of "Questions" so there´s that
like its name implies it is a thread made to contain mostly off-topic, or small subjects that do not warrant the relevance and/or interest to create an entire thread for it
At this point I'm not sure if we still have a BO. However, it's not like I can complain. I haven't been posting much of anything in a long time. I have some moderately interesting stories to tell, but I don't know how the others might react.
What kind of post was that? I don't even know what I'm saying. I've forgotten how to make good posts. I need to get my shit together and write a real post.
I'm still around.
>I have some moderately interesting stories to tell, but I don't know how the others might react
Shoot it out and let other people figure out their reactions for themselves. The only time when it's justified to feel this way is when you genuinely want to improve a part of whatever is being expressed.
i have become alcoholic
i can't function unless i have it in my veins. it's insane
I know that feeling. It's really fucked. I used to be able to go a month clean, maybe go at it once or twice at the end and be satisfied. Now I need it almost everyday or so to keep going. I don't remember the last time when I was more than one month off that shit; it really breaks you down after a while.
ehhh, all things considered, I've been fighting it after I had a bit of a quarrel with an AI.
Turns out I figured out I indulged in alcohol as a coping mechanism for my solitude. It has been 4 to 5 days since I haven't taken a sip so I think I am making steady progress, but funnily enough I had a lot of annoyances lately that felt like tests to go back to the drink.
Needless to say, I grew more powerful because of this.
>a bit of a quarrel with an AI.
>doesn't want to do thing
>wants to train someone else how to do thing
>has zero patience and freaks out on person being trained
>does this to three separate people
<ugh everyone is so difficult except me
Fuck you, seriously.
>doesn't want to do thing
>needs to train others to do thing so he has to do thing to show how it's done
He should kill everyone in the room, it's the only option he has left.
You should be the one who has to deal with this tantrum-prone narcissist every day, miserable faggot.