/r9k/ - robot9000

>>4253
>>4258
Lol. This is almost a mirror of my state of mind ~3 years ago. The internet and imageboards truly fried my brain. I started lurking at the age of 17 and discovered 4cuck r9k and "blackpills". it all went downhill from there.
With the scamdemic I got completely overwhelmed by this feeling that I couldn't trust anyone and, while to a degree was objectively true, with my completely warped state of mind it almost developed into a full blown psychosis.
Gladly It's gotten better since then.
I practiced positive thinking and I give every normalnigger the benefit of the doubt and made some aquantances that you could almost call "friends". Something I didn't have since graduating high school 6 years ago.

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>>4740
I've been a quasi-shutin for over a decade, older than you and starting younger than you though not with imageboards as my sole socialization on the internet, only leaving the house for school and the occasional job. I've ignored my feelings of pessimism and loneliness because of optimism and attempt at strength even if faux in a period when I should've explored those feelings, where my life would've maybe improved if I accepted how fragile and simple I am. I hope you do well and don't lose yourself in the process, not in a sense of becoming a normalfag but truly who you are and what you could be.

>>4741
>where my life would've maybe improved if I accepted how fragile and simple I am. 
Accepting ones own ineptitude is the first step to betterment. How long did I wallow in my false sense of superiority without making any progress? I wasted so many oppertunities, so much time! But wallowing in past regrets is no good either.
Honestly, in the end, no matter how depraved my adolescence has been, I think it was worth the ride.
I made a very good internet friend in the process and am already making plans of traveling to moscow by car next year. For the first time in many years I have things to look forward to again.
>I hope you do well and don't lose yourself in the process, not in a sense of becoming a normalfag but truly who you are and what you could be.
Took me long enough to figure that out. All this time I didn't even know who I was. I was just an almagation of post post post ironic internet tropes.

I hope you find your purpose too, anon.
Pessimism is never the answer, blind optimism neither. I think one has to find a healthy balance between the two. Maybe just call it realism.

>>4742
I don't regret anything about my childhood despite how mediocre it was, it was a journey to understanding the truth and believing the voices in my head and feelings in my gut to where I got as a teen. But I've gotten some nigh irreversible health issues because of what I went through as a teen, so if it gets to that point then something is clearly wrong and you're just accepting the facts and lessons of life at that point. Is that even an uncommon feeling?

I still feel like a child, for me no amount of driving and maintaining internet friendships will fix that for me. I don't know what feeling good and finding meaning is. This is the loneliest and most hopeless I've ever been. I want to warn younger people about how little my struggles in coming of age mattered, and how they can cripple you, and what I thought I really wanted.

Sorry if this is too sappy or heavy-handed.

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>>5071
you're a massive retard:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=okFLkoJXXqo

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>>5094
Why should anyone click a followup link of anyone opening up with name-calling? That's not how you win friends and influence people, friend.

I hate when I feel I am facing a problem with implications so life-altering that I don't feel comfortable sharing them even anonymously. I will just say I am plagued by a miserable narcissist who cannot go one waking moment without being hammered and that includes when they drive, go to work or look after children. I wish they would just off themselves. They feel no guilt over endangering others. Nothing about their situation is tragic. In fact, they were blessed with a very easy life. They're just a selfish piece of shit.

>>5098
Only you know the specifics of your situation, and you are probably feeling trapped and hopelessly ensnared by despair. But consider the following:

> When you are able to succeed at easy tasks, hard tasks feel possible to accomplish. When you are unable to succeed at small tasks, everything seems harder.

> Every day – your job, the government, your addiction, your depression, your money – you feel like you can’t control the forces affecting your fate. So, you stage microrevolts. You customize your ringtone, you paint your room, you collect stamps. You choose.

> Choices, even small ones, can hold back the crushing weight of helplessness, but you can’t stop there. You must fight back your behavior and learn to fail with pride. Failing often is the only way to ever get the things you want out of life. Besides death, your destiny is not inescapable.

> You are not so smart, but you are smarter than dogs and rats. Don’t give in yet.

Oh god, the jews are now flooding my shithole with pajeets en masse. They pay them 50% more than locals, feed them and give them places to stay while local men are being kidnapped and killed off everyday. They have slaughtered a million men in a senseless war and now whine that there are no 'workers' despite not allowing ukrainian 'draft-dodgers' to work. All while continuing and intensifying the slaughter of men even further. All those things I dreaded the most are coming into fruition. And no one in the west, even the 'based' people aren't talking about that. I hate this world so much. I wish I'd be dead already. The waiting is pure agony.

>>5129 (OP) 
In 2009 when I graduated HS I moved out on my own. I had no Internet access, the TV had transitioned to digital and did not work. No one cheered as a walked. I remember crying the first day on the floor, alone, and did not talk to anyone at all for many days. As this was the only time I ever lived on my own it was the happiest year of my life and I miss it to this day. it was fucking peaceful and I got over that 'lonely' shit after a few months.

The saddest years were when I was around many people. At one point growing up I had lived in a room with a triple bunkbed next to two normal bunk beds and a single, all in the same room, one shower, one tv, one computer that the parental guardians would check the history of. The computer had your back facing the wall and was outside of the bedrooms to avoid privacy, in between the living room and dining room. There were four other rooms with children in them on top of the 9. We usually topped out at 15 people. All we did for fun was go to walmart once a week and window shop. We were not allowed to ask for electronics for xmas nor bday. I used to wish for friends and a gf and a normal life back then but not when in college. It was the loneliest time when I had those 7 roommates. I currently live with my long lost parents, moved back in in 2012 after dropping out of college, and wish I lived by myself for the past 14

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I forgot I'm a robot, you had to remind me just so that you're not the only one.
Bastard.

2/2

if you ever get to sit there alone in an apt or similar you will become happy if you have media. It is far better than just being around people. You'll realize that nothing is wrong and you were in the trenches your whole life being around normalfaggots. That is why the 2009 was the happiest time of my life.

If women were victims of being made into property by a ‘patriarchy’, it is inconceivable that they would gleefully provide the wrapping paper and ribbons themselves. Whenever I have glimpsed the interior of a young woman’s bathroom, I could not but be taken aback by the wide array of beauty products. I have long been amazed by the variety and expense of female self-decoration. It is of course, a form of advertising. Every woman understands that her body is quite likely to be the greatest source of wealth she will ever possess and invests considerable time and effort maximizing its potential. It is both a source of immense satisfaction for her and a source of shame that her inner merits will be perpetually overshadowed. It is a source of pure power that no woman is able to resist tapping into for whether she is considered ugly or beautiful only concerns a measure of degree. Every woman has considerable power from the fact of her sex while men without the customary pieces of plastic and paper are essentially worthless in any tally of social value. The fact that women frequently rail against men of privilege only illustrates how the vast majority of men living lives as expendable laborers are not only unsuitable for these women, they are actually invisible.

It is understandable that one might point out that women have many considerations in choosing a mate, many of them based on guileless affection and emotional attachment, but before a man can ever enter the arena as a candi

>>5123

Here we come to the question of equality. Part of the reason why the idea of women as property is reviled under the politically correct circumstances is because it becomes quite difficult to conceive of the sexes as equal when one earns and the other deserves. Females have historically been compelled into the condition that women now typically choose of their own free will.

Women are now free to stop being property, and by so doing stop dehumanizing both themselves and their suitors. Yet, the old pattern continues. Even women who become wealthy from careers simply raise the bar of worthiness to men even richer than themselves. The search for a provider of superior means seems to be the fundamental female instinct when it comes to selecting a mate, but perhaps society can find ways of channeling their nature that are not destructive. To even begin to consider such changes, both men and women must be made aware of the truth—that romance is not romantic. There is a deeply rooted drive in most men to protect women, but until men begin to act against the property system, little can be done to move towards any true or meaningful measure of equality between the sexes. After all, women’s incredible power is product of the male drives to desire and protect. Women have always had some idea of this reality—far more than most men—but until men become powerful enough to challenge this system, women will continue to 

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Are you getting tired?

I don't particularly like or dislike women more than men. I don't care if women wouldn't have sex with me even if I wanted them to. I don't think women should be allowed to participate in politics, not because I hate women and think they should be subjugated a la sharia, but because I think most people in general are too dumb for politics. The whole battle of the sexes thing always seemed a bit silly to me.

Cunts will be always cunts, cunts to losers like you and I, other cunts, their own family because they're eternal cunts and they get away with it besides other cunts calling them out only if they were cunts to them. I don't want to say non normalnigger topics in front of normalniggers and especially vaginaniggers when talking to family and friend, even if they assure me that the normalniggers don't care what we're talking about and "I'm just too paranoid" even when the normalniggers and vaginaniggers are clearly listening in and are talking shit about me to their whores/bydlo/actual nigger friends.
 I'm hijacking this thread topic about why do guys who are social outcasts/losers/really ugly or short/really nerdy/autists/gays  types not just actually incels(the actual definition of virgin men that can't get laid)  who haven't got pussy in some time or generally don't get pussy defend women and don't hate them, some of them said that they even respect them, even when cunts hate them for not being manly thuggish men or will never give them their pussies, I'm afraid of losing guys I have been talking to and being reported for vaginanigger hate or just ridicule. I don't get why I can't hate them when they hate me just for the way I look and because I'm not a wannabe thug. Also everyone else seems to get pussy but me, obese fucks, shorter guys seem to get it, literal retards, ugly ass dude but because they're retard violet bydlos, old men, nerdy men, even homeless, even gays have 

>>4250
interesting

Just rape them

In the most "tough love" way I can in text: STOP EXPLAINING YOURSELF, you should respect yourself better than to be respectful to the disrespectful who demand an explanation for why you are the way you are. Who do they think they are, what makes them so superior that you should bow down and explain yourself to them? You are under no obligation to tell anyone any thing about what you're doing, saying, thinking, or feeling. You owe no one a single justification for your existence, you need not give anyone a warning nor advance notice of what you're planning. Again: have a little self-respect and quit begging for approval.

Replying to a 3 year old post as if anyone will read this.

70% of Autists have hypermobility spectrum disorder, which comes with some quality IBS/gut permeability issues. What they harmlessly shit out could be fucking you up royal, going direct from your digestive tract into your blood stream. Add in a 70% chance of someone with HSD having issues with mast cells flooding your bloodstream with nasty shit if you so much as look at the wrong food and yes you can be seriously fucked up from random shit that is nothing to other people and it can change on the fucking day.

Reminds me of some douche at work trying to gaslight when I said I could smell mold. Someone thankfully backed me up, but fucking normalfaggots carry on about empathy but they can't even imagine that someone could have superior hearing and smell to them and their knee jerk explanation to anyone noticing anything that they do not is to call them insane.

Also there's no need to self censor here, normalfaggots or cunts is fine.

>>4250
>I'm hijacking this thread topic about why do guys who are social outcasts/losers/really ugly or short/really nerdy/autists/gays  types not just actually incels(the actual definition of virgin men that can't get laid)  who haven't got pussy in some time or generally don't get pussy defend women and don't hate them, some of them said that they even respect them, even when cunts hate them

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>>4572
>I don't have violent tendencies.
Well you better start training, because no one respects a wimp, and history never remembers the order-follower. It's time to quit worrying and learn to love the battle axe. History teaches us that if we don't, someone else will. https://jack-donovan.com/sowilo/2010/09/11/violence-is-golden Furthermore, violence is the supreme authority from which all other authority is derived. Full verbatim quote, not a paraphrase, for context:

Jean Rasczak: Let's sum up. This year, we explored the failure of democracy. How the social scientists brought our world to the brink of chaos. We talked about the veterans, how they took control and imposed the stability that has lasted for generations since. You know these facts. But have I taught you anything of value this year? Hm? [to a student] You. Why are only citizens allowed to vote?
Student: It's a reward. What the Federation gives you for doing federal service.
Rasczak: No. No. Something given has no value. But when you vote, you are exercising political authority. You're using force. And force, my friends, is violence. The supreme authority from which all other authority is derived.
Dizzy Flores: Uh, my mother always said violence never solves anything.
Jean Rasc

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>>4569 (OP) 
>still want to kill myself in CURRENT_YEAR
Still lurking, OP?

>>4572
>I mostly just want to be left alone.
That is why you will never be left alone. No one is an island unto themself, we are meant to be a part of something greater than ourselves. We are lions and wolves, not tigers and wolverines. That is why introverts and other loners make most people deeply uncomfortable, because humans in solitude is deeply unnatural and no individual beats a collective.

>>4569 (OP) 
Did you ever kill yourself, OP?

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>>4917
Why?

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>>5109

>>5110
Not an argument.

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>>5113
I'm sure you came up with that Captain Obvious comeback all on your own.

>>5114
I was going to give you a proper response. But I didn't.

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>>5115

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IT'S A TRAP. You are not a "low-value male". Value for whom? A not-broken-but-fixed system that views you as worthless (at best a replaceable, expendable, disposable unit of production among hundreds of millions) and wants everyone sharing your genitalia and skin color except "sovereigns" like themselves to be 99% exterminated as "useless eaters" only leaving the top 1% of most useful (to them) free-range tax cattle? It is no measure of your personal worth to be valuable to a profoundly sick society. Build your real value wherever you are, and take it someplace you are celebrated, not at best tolerated. Stand alone if you must, but you must stand. We're robots just like you, and we're out there too.

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>>5087
>source: my ass
yes

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>>5104

I loathe being circumcised. The idea of showing a women my disfigured genitals is just too much.

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>>5106
It's not a cute little meme or pious platitude deepity, it's had thousands of years of staying power for a reason.

yes i know im a shitty person lol

the creepypasta "dared my best friend to ruin my life" would be much better with this prefrence

Dress you up in a maid outfit, then dry dock you tbh

>>5069 (OP) 
Sounds like a plan my man, but I'd strongly recommend finding a more active board. Try hopping around and reposting this OP around other chans from AllChans, see if you get a bite from one or more of them.