/hikki/ - Hikikomori

>>309
its alright.

>>310
anything better?

>>501
if you can read nip the read the original however I own the light novel physically and it was pretty good last time I read it.

>>147 (OP) 
Both manga and anime are awful garbage but the anime is better, presumably because the original creator had less input

>>662
after his recent sequel id rather have someone else work on adaptations.

>>33
not >>7 but this should help you

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>33
fuck forgot to attach file

>>23
https://laingame.net/

>>4 (OP) 
what is anime?

>>663
It's a fictional anime from anime called Welcome to the N.H.K.

I'm also about to end it. 
I wish you all good luck with your attempts, hoping you all will manage to get where you want to go.
Thanks for a good reading, guys.

>>86 (OP) 
I was looking for the /suicide/ board that used to be on 8ch but looks like there isn't one anymore. I don't know if any of you will be able to help me but I will ask anyway since I don't know any other place that comes this close to /suicide/ board.

I got me 300mg of Targin compresses and 320ml of morphine but I don't have a syringe. Do you think 300mg of Targin at once will be enough to knock me out and end me while I'm unconscious?

>>626
Is your boyfriend Mr. Hands?

>>86 (OP) 
Well, I have left my comfort zone for sometime, back in highschool I was very isolated /hikki/, I have had no friends, I was barely going to my lessons which was being given in some times of the week, and I wasn't even attending like a good boy, I was getting all the money I have to waste it on ciggaretes or just to smoke tobacco.
In reality, many habits, and many featuers of my personality have been decided, like me being angry most of the time and so frustrated from the whole situation I am living.
I am suffering from some diseases and which I can not get enough money to check myself for a doctor, I don't have any kind of courage to tell my parents to do anything for me, they too are suffering because they have aged.
After I stopped being hikki for sometime in my 1st year in collage, I tried to speak with people, and god, it feels so fucking stupid, it feels so goddamned idiocy.
I tried to get myself a job and I did, and it was considerd a success, but I wasn't feeling good at all, because the colleagues were so fucking edgy assholes, I just couldn't do anything, I have done nothing but to bring all of my social-awkwardness and to show it in front of the people there.
Things didn't change really.
Three months ago I have came to know that I have failed in my academic year for the 2nd time during my whole studying carrer. yet the only hope was that I prefect some skill of mine, I studi

I feel that I became so near from something I wasn't willing even in my most desperate moments to do.
Anyways, I think everything was already concluded, but I was too slow, to realize (as I always were and still).
This feelings of imprisonment and encirclement which I feel, the feel for need, I hate the idea of showing myself to my mind as a victim, I really hate it, I don't want ever to be the victim, I don't want to cry myself just to the fact that things always goes this way.
But any human being has his limits, and I have reached mine in reality.
Things which I didn't start, I found other people ending, I never had the courage to start anything, this stance of ignoring as if nothing happens, I just can't stand this anymore.
The mere fact that these things just torture me for nothing, that despite all of the idiotic actions which I have committed against myself, I didn't do anything by god I swear, yet I find myself facing the canons myself, alone, as always.
What the fuck is life?
And why one should just keep thinking himself even if he has no hand in changing anything?
If one just feel that he's out of this whole world.
I am done.

I feel myself becoming worse.
I can't handle being around others anymore. THEY are the ones that have made me this way.
I just hope I can be alone in Heaven.

>>612
I would kill you if you were my son. What a shame. Maybe fate will do it’s thing and she’ll outlive you.

Well, after several unfortunate attempts and health issues, I find myself among the ranks of you weeaboos.

fml

I had to return to living with family
I haven't worked for over half a year because of health issues
I rarely go out unless it's to buy food
i have lost interest in pursuing women (i don't have any issues attracting and engaging with women but this current political climate is insufferable and all the women I have met recently are consumed with woke bullshit)
I spend my days online and doing digital art, shit posting but mainly looking at porn like a fucking degenerate

i need to return to the gym and get myself together. this hermit lifestyle is utter bullshit

my family understands the hinderances but they're also telling me i need to get my shit together and it's true

All my friends have either moved away or live in other countries (real friends, not anons) so I don't have any friends anymore in a sense. I have no one to call or hang out with at the moment (it's been like this for 2 years now).

I rarely get out of bed.

I don't have fights with my family, we get along.

they are the only people I have substantial human contact with

>>585
No thanks. It glows in the dark.

>>546
alfred's playhouse

>>522
We hikkis really need to stop calling ourselves NEETs and just embrace hikki. NEET is such a low barrier of entry that normies are infesting NEET communities.
Reject NEET. Embrace hikikomori.

>>606
Yeah pretty much. Any teenager can claim to be a NEET because they aren't currently going to school or working, which definitely isn't the same thing as hardly leaving your house for years on end, while also probably not having a bunch of friends like normalcattle NEETs do. I'm aware there's debate around these definitions and Hikki/NEET just being synonyms, but if we're honest with ourselves, there is a big distinction between not working for a couple months and not working for multiple years-decades while being stuck in your room because you suffocate in public. Frankly comparing us to NEETs diminishes what we go through and how severe our problems typically are and fetishes it, a lot of us just weren't ever destined to be functional.

>>643
Not clicking that

Eggs, boiled eggs. Dirt cheap and 5 eggs per meal is too much energy for your body already.

If you are making the ramen that comes in the packet and not in the cardboard bowl you can do this;

pour water into the bowl the ramen is going to be served in to the height you want the ramen to be in the bowl. Then pour the water into the pot to boil. It saves you having to use and dirty a measuring cup and you always get the right amount of liquid to pour back into the bowl.

>>575
alright 
first ingredients
you'll need 
2 cups of soy sauce
1 cup of any east asian wine(ive used sake but I use Mirin mostly)
a tablespoon of honey
a tablespoon of ground ginger
a few shakes of garlic powder
3 cloves of garlic
corn starch
boneless skinless chicken thighs
first mix the sauce its very easy use every ingredient in it besides the corn starch garlic cloves and chicken thighs
then fry your chicken and crushed garlic cloves until they are fully cooked then add the sauce
wait for the sauce to heat up before adding the corn starch 

>>561
Have you tried this yourself? Two sausages and a glass of milk are better than nothing or a carb-heavy diet depending on how much you can handle hunger.

Bananas - $0.70 a pound. Oatmeal appears expensive at first, but you get many bowls from a bag or tube of it. Rice of course - drown in soy sauce or butter and sugar if you can't afford to top with meat that day or don't have fresh vegetables.

>>530 (OP) 
Waste of time, golems always turn on you. The smart move is to burn your kippah and Talmud, move to a distant country under an assumed name, and tell the goyim that you're Turkish. They can't tell the difference.

>>82
>>82
>We have been too lazy to reclaim the 8kunt board, that's why cuckchan posters have been shilling there discords on it.
> I am confused  bro what are you talking about?

Yeah. I tried I've been delaying reclaiming /hikki/ for a long time, especially because I lost my mod account. Until I met the BO of this current board and we've been on good terms and thinking about starting a new board for a while now. 
>  I didn't screw over anyone  i didn't wanna run it anymore 
Because you wanted to reintegrate "which is totally normal and I fully support your decision" and the discord drama was too much it kinda made you overlook the board. 
>it should have stayed dead
Why? it was a place for most of us to talk away from the toxicity of other places. 
>plus the board was toxic and depressing and wasn't very good for my mental health
You never thought of it this way when you first started it. You simply started viewing it as such once you wanted to join society again which again is totally fine but abandoning a place that you were highly enthusiastic about  just because you couldn't relate to the users anymore is bad bro.

Though with all that being said. I'm still happy to see you 

>>85
>Im still confused as to why you left the discord servers up on /hikki/

By the time they were posted there i was already gone i haven't been  in  control of that place since August 2019 when 8chan was shutdown i originally had plans to bring it back but i changed my mind after it pretty much stayed dead and didn't comeback for a long time. I apologize for confusing you and making it seem like i fucked you and everyone else over when in reality i didn't mean to and i am sorry about that. If i was still in control i would delete all the spam and clean it up.

>>84
>wait what! did you become a hikikomori again?

Yeah and i don't mind being NEET for a little bit longer i was trying to look for a job at the start of 2020 but Codvid put me back in my room and i am okay with that for now.

>>91
email me and we will get it sorted

lets move this to the meta thread I was going to lock this thread originally before Hikki posted anyway

>be me
>mother asks me for help choosing new computer
>ask her for how much she wants to spend
>also ask for what she needs to do
>write it all down, it's basic stuff like microsoft office and video calls and things
>research system reqs for software etc.
>figure it would be best to get something that can connect via cable (spotty wifi at home)
>something easy to repair and replace parts for
>put together some data sheets on a few models, mostly thinkpads
>all of them under budget, organized on easy to read sheets I printed
>I even lamenated them and sorted them by price (least to greatest)
>Present my findings, offer to help shop on ebay for a quality unit
<get yelled at for wasting time
<get told they were all too ugly, and that she found something on her own
<she throws a pillow at me and yells more when I try to tell her it can't do everything she needs

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>be me
>Dad asks me to help him find a second job because he hates being at home and dealing with my mother
>tells me about some Fed Ex job a huge distance away for $20+ USD
>tells me about a temp agency he wants me to sign him up for
>ask him for a resume
>be kind of a dick about it
>boomer as dad doesnt have a cell phone, refuses to use one, refuses to learn how to use a computer or any electronic
>gets pissed off when i tell him he needs a resume
<"I've been working the same job for 20 years. I dont want to do the same thing. I've gone to temp agencies before and gotten signed up for jobs"
<been over 30 years since that happened
>mfw the temp agency wants a resume
>mfw my dad gets into an arguement with my mom
>feels when made dad cry because the future is now and the world has moved on without him

You cant even get hired at little caesers pizza if you walk in and ask for a job. It's the same everywhere "you gotta apply online"

>>79
kill her

>>79
>thinkpad for mom

>>79
Thinkpad is a kind of autistic call for a normie, but if that's how she treats you no wonder you're where you are.

Your talents and care for detail could br used better elsewhere.