/hikki/ - Hikikomori

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>[Slowcore]
Shizuka - Bloodstained Blossom
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Apati - Morgondagen
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D12 - Fight Music (BET Version)
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>>798 (OP) 
Hopefully someday things will start to turn around, and there'll be programs with very patient people to help out people like us. And hopefully the governments of the world will be forced to keep a certain percentage of factory jobs, because I think jobs with no skills required and no social aspect would be helpful for neets.

>>626
Is your boyfriend Mr. Hands?

>>86 (OP) 
Well, I have left my comfort zone for sometime, back in highschool I was very isolated /hikki/, I have had no friends, I was barely going to my lessons which was being given in some times of the week, and I wasn't even attending like a good boy, I was getting all the money I have to waste it on ciggaretes or just to smoke tobacco.
In reality, many habits, and many featuers of my personality have been decided, like me being angry most of the time and so frustrated from the whole situation I am living.
I am suffering from some diseases and which I can not get enough money to check myself for a doctor, I don't have any kind of courage to tell my parents to do anything for me, they too are suffering because they have aged.
After I stopped being hikki for sometime in my 1st year in collage, I tried to speak with people, and god, it feels so fucking stupid, it feels so goddamned idiocy.
I tried to get myself a job and I did, and it was considerd a success, but I wasn't feeling good at all, because the colleagues were so fucking edgy assholes, I just couldn't do anything, I have done nothing but to bring all of my social-awkwardness and to show it in front of the people there.
Things didn't change really.
Three months ago I have came to know that I have failed in my academic year for the 2nd time during my whole studying carrer. yet the only hope was that I prefect some skill of mine, I studi

I feel that I became so near from something I wasn't willing even in my most desperate moments to do.
Anyways, I think everything was already concluded, but I was too slow, to realize (as I always were and still).
This feelings of imprisonment and encirclement which I feel, the feel for need, I hate the idea of showing myself to my mind as a victim, I really hate it, I don't want ever to be the victim, I don't want to cry myself just to the fact that things always goes this way.
But any human being has his limits, and I have reached mine in reality.
Things which I didn't start, I found other people ending, I never had the courage to start anything, this stance of ignoring as if nothing happens, I just can't stand this anymore.
The mere fact that these things just torture me for nothing, that despite all of the idiotic actions which I have committed against myself, I didn't do anything by god I swear, yet I find myself facing the canons myself, alone, as always.
What the fuck is life?
And why one should just keep thinking himself even if he has no hand in changing anything?
If one just feel that he's out of this whole world.
I am done.

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I can't attempt suicide anymore, because I'm christian.
I don't know what to do anymore.
I'm stuck in this "life". All I can do is to try to make it through the days, but I can't drink alcohol anymore, or sleep for long hours(sloth).
And absolutely nothing changes in my life, and I doubt any outside force is going to help me out.
I hope God returns this year, otherwise I'm going to become homeless.

>>86 (OP) 
I just had a dream that was just about demons harrassing people.
I'm guessing it's because I've been sinning lately.
Wish I could have happy dreams.
I wonder why god punishes people that HE is responsible for creating and attacking and causing to sin.

Well, after several unfortunate attempts and health issues, I find myself among the ranks of you weeaboos.

fml

I had to return to living with family
I haven't worked for over half a year because of health issues
I rarely go out unless it's to buy food
i have lost interest in pursuing women (i don't have any issues attracting and engaging with women but this current political climate is insufferable and all the women I have met recently are consumed with woke bullshit)
I spend my days online and doing digital art, shit posting but mainly looking at porn like a fucking degenerate

i need to return to the gym and get myself together. this hermit lifestyle is utter bullshit

my family understands the hinderances but they're also telling me i need to get my shit together and it's true

All my friends have either moved away or live in other countries (real friends, not anons) so I don't have any friends anymore in a sense. I have no one to call or hang out with at the moment (it's been like this for 2 years now).

I rarely get out of bed.

I don't have fights with my family, we get along.

they are the only people I have substantial human contact with

>>22 (OP) 
After the first few years she stopped caring. Although she still views me as a parasite and takes her frustration out on me and gets very short with me a lot.
All I can hope for is that God kills me soon.

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>>22 (OP) 
Wish I could've had a family like in an american family show (like 7th heaven or whatever).
Seems like most "parents" are passive, which is wrong. You should ALWAYS be active in everything.
But I've grown past the need for guidance.
Now I just try to stay on the right path and hope that something clicks to make me immune to sinful things.
I'm going to try to completely avoid all temptations, but it'll be hard, since I don't have much(healthy things) to occupy my time with.

>>575
alright 
first ingredients
you'll need 
2 cups of soy sauce
1 cup of any east asian wine(ive used sake but I use Mirin mostly)
a tablespoon of honey
a tablespoon of ground ginger
a few shakes of garlic powder
3 cloves of garlic
corn starch
boneless skinless chicken thighs
first mix the sauce its very easy use every ingredient in it besides the corn starch garlic cloves and chicken thighs
then fry your chicken and crushed garlic cloves until they are fully cooked then add the sauce
wait for the sauce to heat up before adding the corn starch 

>>561
Have you tried this yourself? Two sausages and a glass of milk are better than nothing or a carb-heavy diet depending on how much you can handle hunger.

Bananas - $0.70 a pound. Oatmeal appears expensive at first, but you get many bowls from a bag or tube of it. Rice of course - drown in soy sauce or butter and sugar if you can't afford to top with meat that day or don't have fresh vegetables.

Has anyone tried pork flossing on to their rice? Its nice if you can't afford rice.

>>790
I meant meat, if you cant afford meat on your rice you'll use pork flossing, brb kms

>>745 (OP) 
Music maybe. Anime. I d on 't know.

>>745 (OP) 

Not sure what would work for you, but personally working out helped me a lot on self-image and mood, and i'm not even going to the gym, i'm doing everything at home.

And I suppose watching/playing old nostalgic stuff from the 2000s (sometimes a little bit before), a time where society was much saner therefore with products of higher quality and that completely lack any degeneracy of today (mainly getting them through the use of torrents or else) while giving the feeling of being in a sort of time capsule when everything was better then.

I also found a taste for obscure/niche stuff, and data-hoarding (reminder that in december, google is going to remove all youtube videos from channels inactive for more than 2 years), helps somewhat getting myself occupied.

Also it's probably hardly possible for you (same for me) but try to cut pr0n as much as you can, and avoid industrial sugar (that I succeed at however)/sweets, I also found some 15 minutes every few days outside (in countryside) helped a lot. And not using social medias or watching TV at all.

Hope you update us with how your life goes on, Anon.

I have severe problems with anger. The smallest things, like how someone talks to me, can set me off and make me upset all day and punch things.
The only things that slightly cools me down is when I take a shower or a short sleep.
It's also good to have different kinds of playlists on yt to help switch moods(the only mood a person should be in is a calm/slightly cheerful one).
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iXNzsZrqpXI

>>178 (OP) 
Is this me?

>>686
your dad would be glad to talk to you imo, give him a call

Did all the things people said I should do "enjoy life" like changing cities, getting a career, a GF, doing drugs, renting your own place, college

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Barely finished college, dropped out of uni. Cant even bring myself to get my documents back. Got a couple of shitty jobs tho, years ago. Was fired for getting gallbladder stones removed. Haven't left the house in 6 weeks or maybe more. 
Interacting with people is a nightmare, even if I like them and enjoy their company. Recent chapter of chainsaw man summarized it very well.

>>178 (OP) 
I got into a cheap college, but had to drop out because my mother had some financial problems.
I also had a few jobs in my early 20's, but it was just shelve packing jobs and 2 cashier jobs.
I now have no money, friends, health, or anything else. I'm worse off than I was 15+ years ago.
The only thing I have to look forward to is God's return.

>>751

This has nothing to do with being hikki

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>>754
watercolor is a great hobby for hikkis. Its a very cheep hobby and its how a lot of retro manga got colored.

>>755
watercolor pencils are actually pretty cheap, watercolour frens keep making le drawings.

>>765
yeah

>>766
indeed!

>>640 (OP) 
drug dealer. idk, you expect us to know anything about jobs???

>space marine nigger asking hikkis about jobs
lel absolute retard

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>>33
not >>7 but this should help you

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>33
fuck forgot to attach file

>>23
https://laingame.net/

>>4 (OP) 
what is anime?

>>663
It's a fictional anime from anime called Welcome to the N.H.K.