I know I let down many people (teachers, family, my past friends), though noone told me that directly. My psychologist said I have potential. I used to have lots of friends (now I have none), used to be physically active (now I very rarely go outside my house), no job for past 2 years (except for some odd jobs I have sometimes) or maybe even 3 years. I don't keep track of time honestly. 23 here, how can one break that cycle? I guess I'll just go back reading about conspiracies