/hikki/ - Hikikomori

>>960
Who are you replying to?  What does your post even mean?

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>>770
Update: I did not do this.

Hey BOfag, is a battlestation/room thread ok? Or is it a strictly japanese thing to make it nice?

>>1012
It doesn't matter.

>>732
I guess I just liked the fact somebody acknowledged my ICO related post, albeit two years later.

>>733
I keep seeing this whenever I load up this board, and want to join the ICO talk, but can't really think of anything to say...

test

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>>959
Start yourself.

it depends, 'inherent worth' has many meanings, value as a blank slate? resourcefulness? practical value?

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>>1020
Literally, the worth inherited. A combination of genetic and upbringing factors that form a baseline of mental, social and physical capacities that are always being judged. Deviation is possible, but with disproportionate effort and limited results. Requirements further increase and returns further diminish with age. Furthermore, initial lacking can hardly be concealed: developed deviation from own baseline would be second-rate to the natural baseline difference, source of insecurity and behavioral anomalies that can be detected.  

A lacking organism and well-adjusted organism may be going through the same motions, but difference in performance, perception and reactions would always remain apparent.

>>1024
yes, normies can be very blind to things like this as they tend to live on autopilot, but personaly i dislike talking about this, behavior and value being such volatile phenomena, "justifying" things on it sounds whiny, as anything can justified on determinism if one plays enough mental gymnastics with the scope, but i may be coping

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>>1026
While it is not about determinism, whether future is pre-defined or not is irrelevant. There is no subjective difference between making a choice and being convinced you're making a choice, so this is a non-factor in making choices.

It is about recognizing own limitations, accepting that some areas of your personal development are simply not worthfile beyond absolute minimum necessary. It's like joining some MMO server with no knowledge of mechanics or character progression where everyone have been grinding and learning tricks for 20-30 years, except with, for example, social development, finding some equal-level peers would be even less likely as there is no twink characters. Trying to compete with hardened veterans as equals, contrary to some of those veterans' opinion, is a losing proposition, it's nearly impossible to overtake literal decades of advantage, but learning absolute minimum to fend them off and escape from direct confrontations is doable.

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>>136 (OP) 
picrelated is approximately me in my room
>wake whenever i usually have nice dreams and i always hate when they end
>do fuck all until i get tired, lurking imageboards is most of it, if i have energy i consume popular media i torrented
>maybe have one meal during the day but usually none at all
>fall asleep whenever i try to sleep as much as possible because i don't want to be conscious
i can't wait until god sends to anime world afterlife where im happy

>wake up 6-11am
>drink coffee or green tea
>often times smoke weed
>???

>wake up
>listen to cute anime girl music
>read the few new posts on a few slow imageboards
>make a few posts, get b& a few times, ban evade a few times
>piss, cum and shit
>eat and drink
>watch anime
>go to sleep when tired
fuck God and fuck any faggot that worships him

>wake up @ random hour
>spend 2-5h fantasizing in bed
>do chores if theyre very piled up
>eat whatever is about to expire
>browse porn & youtube, pretending im self improving
>maybe shower if it doesnt get in the way of others schedules
>maybe workout if i showered recently
>checkup on everyone a couple times a day to humor them so i dont get kicked out
>go to sleep after being awake 6-40h

>>136 (OP) 
>Wake up
>Dread
>Despair
>Lament over my own Damnation
>Go to bed

>>964
I really like NHK as a piece of literature for that same reason, it doesn't need to be a self-help book, give you a lesson or something like that. Just tell a story, then you could interpret it how you want.

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There's a Buffalo '66 reference in each version.

>>921
i can relate with the "keeping a safe distance is key to making it last".
i have trouble making any friendship last, i think i shild myself of emotions and eventually i get distant of genuinely nice people sometimes. my only lasting "buddy" is a guy that i know from 2013 at the church.
i think it only lasted that long because we barely interact, we stay months or years without seeing each other (last time i saw him was 2021).
i took my time to notice that behaviour in my psyche, i think it was caused by how my mom raised me.

we need a Hitler figure to whip us into shape

>>992
No Hitler can outhitler the Hitler within our hearts, Brüder...

>>1003
least based zzzchanner

>>989
This.

hey there, 
i'm also about to meet an old friend next month, he contacted me some months ago. it has been preety bad for me lately, i've been stuck in my home for months now.
maybe in the next weeks i will go back to look for a job, it has been an excruciating task.

>>1006 (OP) 
>VN
>together
Either you are the luckiest motherfucker ever or just gay.

one of the worst vns ever, couldnt finish it
>story about to get good
>shitty immersion destroying sex scene with an essays worth of text
>new thing commences
>repeat

How long have you been a hikki for?

In a row or in total? Because I have been on and off the lifestyle since I finished my education. A few months working and having to keep a semblance of sociability while at it, then quitting and locking myself up for a couple of years. I go back to my parents' sometimes. They used to try to fix me, get me out, go do something, but I think they have accepted I'm hopeless by now. I'm living with them again and we barely talk. I have never been much to talk, but at least they used to try. They don't even bother anymore, not even to complain about my dead weight or try to lecture me about my future.

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>>968
I remember the days of dysfunctional, unpleasant and impotent concern too. I agree with the notion that it may still be better than quiet acceptance. I'm sure your parents are just too busy with worrying about extremely important things like politics, news and social media to worry about trivialities like the continuation of their bloodline.

>>968
I almost miss the attempts

wait you are a bot right

okay I read it sir

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Where did you come from?

niggers

>>978
First time huh, i remember my first