/hikki/ - Hikikomori

>>953
Why do you call Russia Mordor?  Is there any other forum anywhere else that does that, or did you just pick that up and decided to roll with it?  Why do you call it "OnionNet" and not "Tor"?  What do you mean by "symbolically created"?  Why did you decide to post this in the meta thread of a dead /hikki/ board?

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>> Why, why, proofs!
Fuck went, pissed fagot!

>>960
Who are you replying to?  What does your post even mean?

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>>770
Update: I did not do this.

>>708
Thanks. 

Ico is favorite game of mine. Yorda having to spend her life within the confines of the castle albeit against her will fits with the theme of the hikikomori lifestyle, I think.

>>727
You don't need to justify it, it's a beautiful game.

>>732
I guess I just liked the fact somebody acknowledged my ICO related post, albeit two years later.

>>733
I keep seeing this whenever I load up this board, and want to join the ICO talk, but can't really think of anything to say...

test

hey there, 
i'm also about to meet an old friend next month, he contacted me some months ago. it has been preety bad for me lately, i've been stuck in my home for months now.
maybe in the next weeks i will go back to look for a job, it has been an excruciating task.

How long have you been a hikki for?

In a row or in total? Because I have been on and off the lifestyle since I finished my education. A few months working and having to keep a semblance of sociability while at it, then quitting and locking myself up for a couple of years. I go back to my parents' sometimes. They used to try to fix me, get me out, go do something, but I think they have accepted I'm hopeless by now. I'm living with them again and we barely talk. I have never been much to talk, but at least they used to try. They don't even bother anymore, not even to complain about my dead weight or try to lecture me about my future.

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>>968
I remember the days of dysfunctional, unpleasant and impotent concern too. I agree with the notion that it may still be better than quiet acceptance. I'm sure your parents are just too busy with worrying about extremely important things like politics, news and social media to worry about trivialities like the continuation of their bloodline.

>>986
>I'm sorry but that image is stupid and does not reflect the point of either memes.
Double dumbass on you, sir. The point is not "the virgin does not copulate, the chad does", the point is "the one on the left is common and inoffensive, yet deplorable while the one on the right is uncommon and offensive, yet laudable". The "Virgin Walk" is simultaneously cowardly and efficient while the "Chad Scuttle" is simultaneously courageous and ridiculous.

>>921
i can relate with the "keeping a safe distance is key to making it last".
i have trouble making any friendship last, i think i shild myself of emotions and eventually i get distant of genuinely nice people sometimes. my only lasting "buddy" is a guy that i know from 2013 at the church.
i think it only lasted that long because we barely interact, we stay months or years without seeing each other (last time i saw him was 2021).
i took my time to notice that behaviour in my psyche, i think it was caused by how my mom raised me.

we need a Hitler figure to whip us into shape

>>992
No Hitler can outhitler the Hitler within our hearts, Brüder...

>>1003
least based zzzchanner

>>956
No. Everyone reaches the same destination by different routes, there's no lesson to learn.

>>961
...why did you bother with going through so much NHK media?

>>963
Because I liked the story. The author didn't really have any answers, if he did he would've found another way to escaping instead of writing a book or growing out of it and he ended becoming a hikki again afterwards.

>>964
I really like NHK as a piece of literature for that same reason, it doesn't need to be a self-help book, give you a lesson or something like that. Just tell a story, then you could interpret it how you want.

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There's a Buffalo '66 reference in each version.

wait you are a bot right

okay I read it sir

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Where did you come from?

niggers

>>978
First time huh, i remember my first

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>>903
I'll try again and try to stick to the main point.

Happiness/Sadness are the expressions of chemicals in the brain.  Due to our biology, however, a consistently net positive expression of these chemicals is impossible, and is considerably more fleeting than one may realize.  This is backed up by happiness studies as well.  Therefore, happiness/sadness as a goal in life is impossible, and the information conveyed by these emotional states are useless and should be ignored.

>>906
Well, I guess I might as well keep talking to myself.

This thought has been sticking in my brain more and more, begging for it to get fully written out into some overly wordy manifesto.  There are so many societal morals that go out the window when one considers the impossibility of happiness.  There are so many therapies and psychiatric studies that appear more plainly to be nothing more than manipulative shams when one considers that happiness is an impossibility.

It completely changes the worldview, and I don't know where to begin with it.

I've been trying to code a game, but I either get overwhelmed by how big the task is, or when I break it down into small enough tasks the code gets so spaghetti that I lose track of everything.

>>910
I've been trying to improve the way that I plan it so the separate tasks really are segmented enough to not be overwhelmed.  I think I've come up with a way to design the system beforehand, and then use graph theory to simplify and modularize the codebase.  But, I doubt it.  I've only written a single function.

>>916
How is it going so far?