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sorry to dissapoint you but its not like i can help you with that,thing is i know fuck all about meditation, i already tried my hand back in the day and i am certain that i have no capabilities for Magick at all, i can't even meditate let alone Lucid Dreaming as you mention, all i have learned and understood has come to me through Intuition and Contemplation, combined with Faith on my Sweet Taihou, one of my Associates however is Aquainted with Alchemy and is in the same track as you, i told him about your post, wether he decides to give you a hand or not its his deal, what i can do for you tho is to give you a Tarot Read, in order to make things quicker ill post the Thoth Tarot Deck so you can look at the pictures if you want (the PDF is in german but i think you can make it out easy from the numbers), either way ill throw 3 Cards your way, if you need more context i can throw you another one up to a maximum of 8, (i say 8 because for me that is the number in wich i have enough Context to understand what they mean without them being too verbose, simply put Readings beyond 10 are so Dilluted in their meaning the don't make sense, or comprise a Scale that extends far into the Future and Possibility for it to be Useful in any case)
Card 1:Ace of Cups:Water in its most absolute sense,
Card 2:Ace of Wands
Card 3:4 of Wands "Completion"
the Ace of cups is the Root of Water, pure Potentiality, the Cup in the Picture represents the Holy Grail, thing is that the way Crowley sees the Holy Grail is not really the Holy Grail, in this case the Holy Grail is not the Restoration of the Initiatic point of View and the Beggining of Divinity, but rather Potentiality in its absolute aspect, the Ace of Wands is the opposite of this, Absolute Fire, Activity in its True sense, the 4 of Wands is the Consolidation of Force, it is essentially the Sum of all the things you know and you have done on the Matter up untill now, this is from where you stand,
now at this point i would have posted this, but it is obvious this read lacks a LOT of Context, what i have done is to place the Ace of Cups (Pure Potentiality, Passivity, all that could be) at the Bottom, and the Ace of Wands (Activity, Actuality, in this context i take it as the Stillness Divinity Realized, this is your Goal whatever it may be) at the Top, i have discarded the 4 of Wands back into the Deck, i will shuffle again, and draw cards untill reaching 8 (counting both the Ace of Cups and Ace of wands, so that would be 6 Cards) So from Top to Bottom:
Ace of Wands
10 of Disks "Wealth"
8 of Disks "Prudence"
IV The Emperor
4 of Wands "Completion"
Princess of Disks
4 of Sword "Truce"
Ace of Cups
Truce is a balance of Forces, Swords represent Air but also Thought or Intellection, this may make a Reference to the Mental blockade in wich you find yourself in, either way Truce is limited by Reason, it sits still pondering what is the next step to be taken, the Princess of Disks is the Absolute State of Earth, the Throne of The Spirit, it is really nothing by itself, but rather what you put on it, wether the Princess of Disks is the Heart of the Matter itself, meaning that your "choice" of paths is not really a "Right or Wrong" decision, but a matter of what could be more efficient and pleasant for you, or wether it is something else, it is something you will know, the 4 of Wands appears again, after you have made the choice of what to make out of the Princess of Disks and resolve your conundrum with Truce, it is where your Past Experience and Knowledge enter in Play, The Emperor is Conquest and Dominance, Prudence is all about Calculated Risks, once you have decided where to go, wether you get there or not will be decided by how Solid your Plan is, and your Ability to Stick to it, at this point in the Game there's nothing you can do, you must be Patient and stick to it, Going back will Waste everything you have done at this Stage
Fucking Character Limit/2