soldier_dies.mp4
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i did, it was a miserable experience
>see cute girl around my age during Bible study
>want to ask her out
>realize i haven't asked out a girl in years
>completely socially inept
>spend all of Bible study and the service trying not to freak out
>eventually start a conversation with her only because a senior member literally dragged her over to me
>make small talk for a bit with her and her dad
>...
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>...
>awkwardly say bye and walk away
it hit me right there how my social skills are completely nonexistant. i can't even hold a conversation for more than two minutes. i just feel completely hopeless right now.
finding a bunch of other social events in the area that i'm going to force myself to attend, liking every single breathing female on every dating app, i just need to talk to more people.
the worst part is i used to be fine talking with people, then somewhere between covid and today i just completely fell apart and i have no idea why. that's what kills me. now all my friends are getting married/engaged and i only know maybe four people in this city that i see sporadically. i feel like a hopeless loser. worst part of it was the sermon was about "husbands/wives submit to one another" which didn't help at all.