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First of all, how often are you committing mortal sins? The point of repentance is to turn away from even the inclination to sin. What value is your penitence if all you've achieved is to sin, beg for mercy, and to sin again? Forgiven, yes, you may be because the Lord is slow to anger in His patience: but your contrition is imperfect. Don't you know that the end of the commandments is your own well-being, that God seeks your delight in edification?
"For if we sin willingly after we are to receive the knowledge of the truth, no longer remains a sacrifice for sins, but a certain terrifying expectation of judgment and fury of fire being about to devour the adversaries."
Hebrews 10:26-27
Thus, stop sinning.
Second,
>We're talking God here, the Almighty, Our Lord, the Holy Spirit. It's not like your quite human "dad" who may have treated you unfairly. God's judgement is perfect.
And He judges knowing your past and your future. Are you faithless of your own salvation? Did Christ somehow treat you especially and has not situated you to be purified of all your sins in anticipation of His coming Kingdom? His atonement is one and final: He has delivered His flock from death and pollution. As Jacob prepared the flocks of Laban in Genesis 30 for his glory, Christ has prepared His flocks to be gathered into His glory.
Further, the New Testament literally calls the Lord God Almighty by the Aramaic term for dad:
"For as many as are led by the Spirit of God, these are sons of God. For you have not received a spirit of bondage again to fear, but you have received the Spirit of divine adoption as sons, by whom we cry, “'Abba!' Father!” The Spirit Himself bears witness with our spirit that we are children of God"
Romans 8:14-16
"Abba: This Aramaic word is found three times in the New Testament (Mark 14:36; Rom 8:15; Gal 4:6), and in each case is followed by its Greek equivalent, which is translated “father.” It is a term expressing warm affection and filial confidence."
NET Bible study notes
And further in the selfsame chapter:
"Now likewise also, the Spirit joins to help us in weakness; for we do not know the things which we should pray for as it behooves, but the Spirit Himself makes intercession with inexpressible groanings. And the One searching hearts knows what is the mindset of the Spirit, because He intercedes for the saints according to God."
Romans 8:26-27
The Holy Spirit, the Paraclete, which accompanies the heart of every believer, makes intercession for their shortcomings. There was no treasury of merit in the first century and neither was one ever needed. For scripture calls us to a personal and committed relationship in faith with our Lord, God, and Saviour Jesus Christ, not to a superficial practicum of rituals and observances. Christ was incarnate in the flesh as the lowliest of servants, not a king; He ate with sinners and tax collectors, He healed the sick in spite of their ritual uncleanliness, and lastly He suffered humiliation and was reduced to nothing in death. The Christian God, unlike the god conceived of by the Jews, or by the Muslims, came to share in the sufferings and the joys of the earth, because He so loved His creation and purposed to achieve its redemption. Via the person of Jesus Christ, in whom the fullness of deity dwells, we understand the mysteries of the divine, and towards Christ and Christ alone do we set our faith and worship, zealous for the sanctification which only He can inspire.
"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and it will be opened unto you. For everyone asking receives; and the one seeking finds; and to the one knocking, it will be opened."
Matthew 7:7-8
Study scripture. Meditate on the word of God. Meditate in your supplicatory prayer. Invest yourself in the discourse of the church fathers. Are the saints not your brothers and sisters in Christ? Do you not seek the prize of sharing in communion with them in the Kingdom? Do not short sell yourself of the indefinite miracles which avail themselves through the triumphant cross of our victorious Redeemer. For dominion, and power, and glory are His forever and ever, and may your vocation in His sight be revealed to you. Amen.