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I skimmed thru your post a bit of tl;dr on my part.

My usual answer is "no" as is here, except in this case I can immediately motivate it: look how much effort you put into your OP you dummy. You still have a lot of energy in you. How about you use it for something good.

I'm not gonna lie and guarantee your happiness but you owe it to yourself to try. One life, probably no afterlife, probably no reincarnation. One life then dead forever so you have plenty of time to be dead so why rush it?

I'm not young, I'm 30. And yeah, I agree with you above me, I guess I did put a lot of energy into it. And yeah, one life then dead forever. I just can't take the loneliness.

>>244136 (OP) 
>There is no hope. Should I just do it?
He'll yeah dude

>>244147
>I just can't take the loneliness.
What about a cat or a dog? A pet to keep you company.

I'm sort of in the same situation as you (maybe even worse) except I've gotten used to it. Like that meme "just live with the pain".

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>>244136 (OP) 
Nah. You've a long long way to go before you should consider ending it at all.

From reading your post it seems to me that you're finding it difficult coming to terms with how people come across to each other in day to day life. It is jarring when the realisation hits that people in general seem cold, uncaring or distant. Please take hope when I say that people aren't as cold as they appear. It's just tricky to get that out of them sometimes. Consider how mortifying it would be if you were to discover that you yourself came across as coldhearted to other people, when that isn't the case. You'd want to be given the benefit of the doubt.

To me you come across as a thoughtful person who genuinely cares about himself, the people he meets and by extention society. You know how to communicate, stringing sentences and paragraphs together placing you above average in terms of communication these days.

Offing yourself shouldn't be an option unless you're terminally ill or your death would serve to benefit people you care about or save them from future hardship (not the case here from what I gather). Don't you want to fight? Do you think any worthwhile victory ever came without a struggle? Just see what happens.

Now you see the hell that is other people and the more you stare into them the more you realize the true vile evil nature of man.
The joke is it never was different, man always labored under the illusion that it gets better and peddle the time away with petty problems.
There was nothing ever to live for nor against for that matter really, the moralists are the true losers and nihilists, discordians and hedonists the winners.
The only way to escape this matrix is to idenitfy and understand it then confront it on its own flawed terms.
Neither death nor life give the answer, why make the mistake of making a choice.

>>244147
OP, do you have any values?
Do not let women destroy your life. They're not worth it.

The only reason to kill yourself is if you have an illness that kills you in a shitty way or if you're trapped somewhere
Your ideas and politics and how many people care aren't a reason to kill yourself, most people are at least some favor of  psychopath anyways

Your post is horribly formatted, it's beyond reddit spacing. Completely unnecessary space bar hits before every other line?
For those who might be struggling with issues OP claims to be having: stop whining and self pitying

>>244177
On the contrary, my good faggot. New paragraph indenting is a legit and well established formatting standard. And they aren't space bar hits, they're made with the tab key.

>>244136 (OP) 
Kill yourself you fucking Tranny
There, now you have an excuse to keep living.

>>244189
Wait, he a tanny?
Yep kill yourself Op, God will let you be a woman in hell

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>>244177
image related facebook frog is allowed now so oh well
>>244136 (OP) 
<CRAAAAAAAAAWWLLLLIIIIING IN MYYYYYYY SKIIIIIIIIIIIN
If life is indeed only going to get worse then to  avoid being slowly boiled alive without realizing it's getting hotter indeed you would be better off hopping out of the pot. After all, we don't know what happens anyway. The only reaon people don't kill themselves is because of that 'hell' bullshit in regards to suicide. They get sad lives, they think about it being worse in hell, then ironically people that are not very happy but spoiled end up committing suicide more often than the unhappy people in this mad mad world.

>>244193
>The only reaon people don't kill themselves is because
People don't kill themselves because of narcissism and the insane amount of bravery takes

>>244209
>bravery
If you believe in hell. I covered that.

>>244225
Hell is a useful concept for people, and you have to come to that conclusion yourself, but the bravery isn't for hell, it is for obliteration
Humans are instinctively scared of things they have no reference for, and no amount of language can help it, therefore to kill oneself necessitate a great amount of bravery to overcome the instinct, something most people don't have

It's not just hell. It's reincarnation too. Imagine in this life you are white and living in America. Then you kill yourself and end up reborn in Africa or India.

>>244237
Then ill just have to kill myself again

>>244238
Well just hope for the best

>>244239
reincarnation is retarded anyway, most of what "you" are is your biology

>>244136 (OP) 
> It does not "get better", it gets much, much worse
What does getting better look like?
>nobody will ever help me with my goals
What are your goals?

Cool story
Now go fellate a gun

>>244269
>Op is not a tranny
Okay, but if he becomes one, he needs to kill xerself

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>>244136 (OP) 
I don't get why some of you guys get so worked up over not being with normalfaggots. They are shit. Fuck them. I would never even contemplate killing myself because I didn't have this garbage ass cattle around me. 
On the contrary, I want to live as long as possible so I can continue to spite them and watch them grow miserable.
You have the totally wrong perspective.

>>244136 (OP) 
It doesn't matter if nobody cares. We were all always on our own. Normalniggers are worthless. Killing your ego is like killing yourself except that you regenerate. Communicating with others is like a drug so try withdrawing from it and see how relaxing it is without it.

Freedom and happiness are my main values

>>244154
Wanna chat? What's your contact info?

>>244136 (OP) 
Yes you’re worthless it won’t make a difference

>>244136 (OP) 
Visit a psychiatrist. The meds might help.

>>244341 (kike)

>>244342
OP just venting to a person (in this case a professional) will help more than posting here. The doc might prescribe meds. That's only secondary.

>>244348
Maybe that would help, but meds would not, definitely not.

>>244348
The meds lobotomize you dude

<<244348
>>244350
Fuck that, I would rather go to a christcuck priest or a witch doctor than support therapist roasties.

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>>244295
I respect you fags for keeping it real while every other nigger is trying to keep this retard alive. The weak, the meek and the useless must be purged from the face of this Earth, and the more that do it themselves, the better. Survival of the fittest bitch.

But to address the real issue that he and others suffer: this is the modern age where God is dead (because we killed Him), where all ideology and religion are hollowed out and - as nature abhors a vacuum - filled with empty words and nihilism, and there is so much human life that it has become devalued to the point of worthlessness.

>>244365
t. Virgin who will never even see a pussy.

>>244367
No meme arrow therefore you attributed that signature to yourself.

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>>244136 (OP) 
Your experience is eerily similar to mine, let me share with you what I've found. It's unwise to kill yourself. The dead are powerless and the sonless dead may as well have never been born. Consider this selection from Havamal (69-72):

No one is totally wretched,
even if his health is bad—
some find happiness in their children,
some in their kin,
some in their money,
some in work well done.

Better to be alive, 
no matter what, than dead—
only the living enjoy anything.
I saw a fire burning
for a rich man,
and he lay dead outside the door.

A limping man can ride a horse,
a handless man can herd,
a deaf man can fight and win.
It’s better even to be blind
than fuel for the funeral pyre;
what can a dead man do?

Better to have a son than not,
even if he’s born late in life,
even if he’s born after you die.
You’ll rarely see memorials or graves
standing near the road
that were raised for men without sons.

>>244365
>I respect you fags for keeping it real
I reckon reality is mostly dull, ceaseless hostility so It seems they have 'kept it real' but why would you respect someone for doing what every other drooling retard does? Neither hostility nor conformity are virtues.

>>244136 (OP) 
Yeah but do you want the jews to win?

>>244368
>heh with this one weird trick I actually won!
you are a virgin

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>>244375
This. You can't see Israel get nuked if you're dead.

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>>244377
>heh I say you're a virgin therefore I win
So which are you, weak, meek and/or useless?

I don't care about spiting people or the jews anymore. Or seeing things happen. After all, once you're dead, its over and everyone forgets. Even when the event is over, they forget. And yes, meds make you numb. It's not right. No offense, but I think anyone who prescribes therapy is wrong. It's just a money grab. And I like that book verse, however, I think all those things it mentions are actions that can help humans, and I hate them. I don't want kids, either. I just don't want to do anything.
	Also, could porn be affecting my brain/thoughts? I've tried to quit, but it's very hard when it's everywhere, even when you block it. I do feel more calm when i don't watch/fap, though.
	I like playing games and watching things, but the moment I'm done, I feel depressed and alone again. Idk why. Exercise helps. But not enough yet that I don't feel completely alone, which I am. 
	I do want to get a pet, but again, how much will I feel like it helps, and how much will I feel like its work/a burden. And I'm just not sure if it'll make me feel not alone.
	I want to stop caring about humanity, but they're just so stupid, and I want them to change. But they wont. So I keep teetering between trying a whole lot, and just not.
	And for the people who say I'm not strong. I am. You are just emotionless and ignorant. You feel nothing.

I'm also afraid of doing it because if it doesn't work, I'll be put in a hospital, which is akin to a less shitty prison. And who knows when they'll let me out? When they think that I'm "better"? Because I'm wrong for not enjoying life with all its shit? So I don't want to suffer even more.

Be fun about it, like a 🗡️ or ✋💣 
They won't take you alive

>>244377
being a virgin is something to be proud of in current day

>>244423
How is porn everywhere? Take a break from being online. All you need is your imagination. Video games are pretty hollow once you've played them long enough. Try learning something new. Having a portal ironically makes people less likely to an hero because it makes them less stressed to know they can do it at any time.
>>244425
People find a reason to keep going even while living in prison. Consider whether your life really sucks so bad or whether it's a matter of your ego. You may be oblivious to how much the world and your mindset can change over time.

>>244433
As long as you ain't a simp or porn addict (gooner or coomer) then I agree. 

>>244438
OP you should listen to this anon. There's always a way to make your life better. Just stop caring about what others think and focus on things that give you hope, happiness, sense of achievement and put you in a better position in life.

>>244379
With a war on Iran coming soon. Let's hope Netanyahu and israehell get vaporized and every Israel lover and the puppets in D.C. have a temper tantrum that lasts a thousand years.

>>244478
>There's always a way to make your life better.
Yes and the best way to achieve that is with a quick application of buckshot mouthwash. 
Let's be truthful, OP. You are utterly worthless and completely nonhuman. No one will miss you, not even your family. You'll be doing the entire world a favor with your self-removal from this shtihole realm.

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>>244480
Israel turning into Wasrael will be remembered as one of the greatest moments of our time. The question is what to do when the ZOG get involved.
>>244517
OP is worth saving as long as he's white.

>>244136 (OP) 
We know you won't do it. Takes balls... which you don't have.

>>244136 (OP) 
I exist knowing that my existence causes my enemies to scream in agony.

None one will help, that is true - but what better way to punish the enemy by continuing to exist?

>>244572
>Last seen on or about January 20th, 2021
I wonder what deranged person thinks the country was perfect in 2020.
>>244732
Pain is irrelevant.

I still want to die

>>247081
Stop acting like whiny white boi and learn to be a real nigga, don't ask why live? Ask how do I live? Ask yourself, what's the best way a nigga can exploit his situation to improve himself, I ain't asking you to be some kikegineer or study some talmudic stem subject, all I am asking you is to be disciplined. It don't matter what your skill is as long as you're able to do what is needed, when needed, wherever needed, it don't matter if it's a warehouse job or completing your school courses.

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>>247081
This is you

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>>244136 (OP) 
>nobody will ever help me with my goals
yes, they wouldn't be yours otherwise
>>247081
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