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>I hope that didn't sound disapprovingly.
No worries, all feedback is good. I am sure there could possibly be more revising done, maybe. For now I feel this is a good start, do you think?
>spoilers
No worries, really.
>Yeah, it was a little bit unusual and fresh for me. What I've come to...
Am glad you find some joy in this as well, it's never easy hopping around different places, and I much rather adjust than perish, at least there is 8/desu. God forbid the big red button gets pressed on that site, that would mean everything goes poof. Scary thoughts.
>Yeah, that's right, hehe. If only I had friends aside from... You, it's only you now, I guess.
I would not say only me, I mean though few, we are here. Even if for a little while I feel that means something, no?
>But no one else is really needed. Less pain and negative emotions for everyone, I guess.
Looking after others can be taxing, but nobody should truly ever be alone.
>For some reason, I didn't expect such an answer from you. Good.
As much as I would wish it was nonexistent, it's inevitability is something we grow accustomed to as life goes on, nothing ever truly stays the same, much like childhood buildings and people, they all tend to slowly become buried in time to the point of their only existence being stories, memories whether personal or through others. That being said it's much like those buildings or people, we grow more and more decrepit, and a time will come where it will be our turn to catch the sand. My apologies perhaps a bit morbid.
>I fear that I will no longer be able to perceive Her, think about Her and remember Her in this reality.
In your situation that is a very scary thought, I personally am deeply afraid of health or accidental I would find myself in a situation where I am still conscious but not coherent, unable to care for myself, it's a nightmare situation. God forbid seeing a time where you are unable to visit.
>My only tasks is to survive and to achieve maximum happiness possible
That is a task I can get behind.
>Oh please, don't take it too seriously
Hmm, I would have to read what I posted, I am sure I was not drunk. So I doubt I put too much into it.
>Yuck. ~desu
Yes, why I have yet to reply over at 8/desu, soon perhaps even tonight I will finish out the reply.
>Aside from brain surgery and hellish pains, constant benzo withdrawal syndrome, inconsistent and harsh medical treatment, almost surrendering to my illness and very old nightmares from the past that are happening now in this reality, it really has been a very uneventful year indeed.
Definitely not in your case, and I am not trying to be funny. As much as I wish I had a nice picture to paint in my personal events of this year, although many improvements in comparison to the last couple years everyday life still lacks color. Still always tired, still juggling sobriety and indulging in self induced sicknesses. Not that I am complaining, although I do strive to improve better, I am quite satisfied with where I sit, and could only want the same for others.